...Hi Hi people...well since no one reads my journal entries I can write (type) about anything here right well ok. So...has anyone ever felt a very strange feeling in your heart when your near someone....I've never felt it before but the day I met Taylor, my heart exploded with this stupid feeling I don't know what it is i mean I dont think I'm afraid of him...right...it couldn't possibly be love....Could it? I mean I've never had this feeling even wen I had a boyfriend it just never happened, but I'm very confused could it be love. The way I look for him when I go anywhere public the way I need to see him just once, yearn to see him just once a day to make me feel happy could it be love? I can't get him out of my head he's the first person I think about in the morning and the last person I think about at night....But....Now I can't even see him once a day (my pearants transferred me to a different school and now i cant see him anymore) I feel so alone and incomplete so sad and depressed...If only i could see him just one more time to say bye to give him a hug and see his cute face listen to his smooth voice just one more time. I though that leaving without a good-bye would make it better but i think it just made it worst i regret it so much even now i think about how stupid i was to just leave like that and i think about the things i would have said over and over again but when will i ever be able to use them, never i guess. They've all moved on, I left and now he is free to go out with Lexie my best friend. i told her that now that I'm gone...now that I'm out of the picture he would gladly ask her out and I'm very happy that he did sweatdrop right you have to be happy for your friends even if it means you dont get what you really want even it just doesn't feel fare. Hey life aint' fare smile deal with it i learned how to do that 'hehe' now i-i-i am still so lost and sad i want him i really do but what can i do what can Priscilla Garcia the most shy girl do just for the person she- she LOVES when she's almost given up on life all together would i be able to stand up and get what i want for once in my life, will i be able to say that i loved him right to his face even when i couldn't even say my good-bye's i think about it so much i think about really doing it but i know that would never happen i know that even if i do get the strength to go and tell him how i feel i would be hurting lexie and i couldn't possibly live with myself if i did that. But all those feelings the warm hugs his voice the way i felt so-so jealous wen i saw him with his now ex-girlfriend his eyes so pretty and hunting the way we talked so easily the way i only thought about him all day long and grew so happy when he sat with us at lunch the way we would meet up on my way to my language class....would i be able to just forget about that all so easily or would it just eat at me until i just couldn't take it anymore.....but for now i will have to settle for just his face imprinted in my memories till one day-till the day came that i was meant to say "i love you..." or at least "good-bye taylor...". I really do hope that day would come..i really do ^_^
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