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I lay there in my bed i can hear the screams as if they are right there in the room with me. Trying to cover my head to block them out as i feel the tears falling but i don't know where they are comeing from. Just to wake myself an find that it all has been a dream but the screams where mine an the tears are real as i touch my face. Why must i have to endure the endless pain that rips through my heart an the memories that just wont fade. I've lost memories that i wanted to hold so dear just to end up keeping the ones that cause nothing but sorrow. Why do i care it's not like anyone is here to hold me in their arms an whipser to me that thing are ok. I sit in the dark an wonder how it would be to have someone who truley cares without ever wanting something in return for it. To freely give their love an not worry what they want or how much it will cost. How nice it would feel to have such kidness shown an never have to worry. But that will not happend not while i live this life maybe in another life but not this one. The one who clames to care is so far away that i can not touch or feel the kindness that is wanting to be shown......This life sucks but i will hold my head up high an try not to cry. Bitting my toung i will not complane...only my writting will set my heart free to apoint.
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