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July 15, 2005
This one I made for someone I didn't mean to have pissed off.

Total Screw Up
by Daniel Studley


There are times when I know I ******** up
There are times I know where I ******** up
Do I regret it?
That'll be like telling Sherlock, "No s**t"

Spoken: I messed up.

I confess there are times where I say the wrong thing
Which I never mean
But still, people look at me
And accuse me
For being a total p***k
Then if so, then feel free to hit me over the head with a brick
Then order me to suck on your d**k or your c**t
For forgiveness

Spoken 2: I'm sorry!

If there's a thing I learned
Burn someone, expect to get burned
It then leaves me hanging over the edge
Standing over this ledge
Hearing someone in a lynch mob from behind
With their torches, pitchforks and 2x4's
Screaming, "String him up high!"
Let them split open wounds and let them bleed me dry
Then let them tie a rope around my neck and throw me over a bridge

Spoken 3: I ******** up, what more do you want?!

I should expect a reply sometime soon
And hopefully take off this gloom
That I harbor inside
The kind that would bring
Even the toughest ***** to his knees
Somehow, I should expect a "*****, Please!"
That's all that it would take
For me to spike myself in the face with a metal rake
And have a priest finish me off
By stabbing me in the chest with a wooden stake
Straight through the chest
I confess I made a stupid mistake
The least you could do
Was understand
I was going by what I read
A simple misconception
Was not what I inticipated
The rest was a joke
But I'm guessing you're gonna tell me to go stroke

Spoken 4: I've been told I was a d**k. That's the message I'm getting from you, isn't it?

There was a time when I was kid when I had a dream
That I saw a monster in my house
Never thought that monster was supposed to be me
Now you wonder why I wake up with a scream
Now I can pretty much die as a drunken louse
As I mentioned, never thought that was supposed to be me
An uncaring total disappointment
Somebody that should've been aborted
Long before I started walking
Alas, here I am, crying out my eyeballs,
About ready to down this entire bottle of Lysol
Followed by another bottle of Tylenol
And end it for good
I'm not expecting to make it to Hollywood
And get out of everybody's lives
Because all I do is ******** 'em up
Knock me down and keep me down
On the ground
Don't let me get up
This can be my punishment
All that's needed now is a jury, you're the judge
To carry out a sentence deemed acceptable
Sorry if my actions weren't reprehenisble
It was all because I made
A ********' mistake
So go ahead and finish me quick
No one will ever suspect
You'll get away clean
And leave my uncouth carcass in a gory heap
Leave my body all ripped up
And scatter my dead a** all over the place
It'll give you an excuse
You have better friends than me
People you can brag to
About tearing some uncaring a*****e up
And left him for dead
You can prove it by showing them my head
Doesn't matter what one
Neither one matters to me
Because like I said, I ******** up
What more do you want
A ******** death warrant
Hell, I sign for you by slicing my throat
And save you from wasting your time
Not gonna bother with me anymore? Don't bother reading this ryhme
All I can say, is that I made this for you
Just to show you
A broken hearted man's side
Of pain, misery and shame
So I'm sorry if put that on you
Understand I wasn't pissed at you
There was just something that was already killing me
From the inside out
Go ahead and ask me when in doubt
And I'll tell you my life story especially when it all went downhill
I was already in hell long before you told me to go there
So that's just a waste of time
My soul's just waiting for me to get there
And maybe even stay there for all eternity
And hopefully give you and everyone you and I know some tranquility






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Death of Emiko
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commentCommented on: Sat Jul 16, 2005 @ 03:18pm
Dude. You make me so ******** happy.


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