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"You fit with me. I know it. This is real. I may sound ahead of myself but I've thought about this. Can I live without you? Yes, but why would I? I've finally made the divine difference between reality and my dreams and I see you in both for the first time. If I told you I loved you but this time, I want you to feel my heart when you hear me say it, would you understand my feelings for you? They're complex, I know but you're a complex individual yourself. I haven't exactly figured you out..But this odd intuition tells me that I should love you. For the first time, my heart and my mind have reached an agreement. They have finally say, He's the one you need around. I'm smiling because of you and you don't even know it. You capture my interest, my eye, my heart, and my mind. No one's like you and I love it. I want you with me always. Zutto in your language, yes? I'm revealing a lot of me to you and I don't know if this my nature or if it's just you," she sighed with a smile and hugged him. "Stay with me." She looked up at him, still in his arms. "Please?"

"All the things I was looking for..", she said before burying her hands in her face. "He's gone." Tears streamed down her face. "I can't keep this in my mind any longer. I'm one moment, one day, one week, one year too late...Why couldn't I tell him he is where my heart lies? He's where home is to to me Why? Could he not tell when I told him goodbye? Could he not see the regret and pain of losing him? Not only as someone I enjoyed being around but someone that will always have a place in my heart, just for them. Does he not know that he has a reserved pedestal in my heart? On it says, 'The love she could never have'", she chuckled and looked up at the sky from her balcony. It was a warm day and the sky was clear. It was plain blue without clouds. "Looks like the ocean..", she whispered, trying to get him out of her mind.