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Floating along could nine
Being careless
Smiling, laughing, loving
All dreams
I spent so much time on things that weren't real
I knew they could never be real
I avoided the harsh treatment of reality
I knew one day
I'd stop dreaming
I knew that one day
My eyes would flutter open in the middle of the night
And instead of seeing a warm sunirse
I'd see nothing
I knew by the time I'd stop dreaming
I wouldn't even see myself
But I kept dreaming until the end of me
I danced
I "loved"
I became who I never could be
I guess you could say the "ideal me"
I looked to imaginary people
With aritificial affections
To heal my heart
God won't allow me to sleep forever
He loves me too much to
Allow me to destroy myself
With artificial life trapped in my own mind
I'm awake now
I see the street lamps light overlapped through my blinds
I can see myself a bit
It'll take real time
And true of affections of people that really care
To heal the damage that I've self-inflicted
I'm but a poor dreaming convalescent
Healing slowly

This is wrong
Take me from here and bring me to
My Utopia
A place where the pain disappears
And the love we have
Isn't scrutinized
A place where
You and I were meant to be
A place that reminds me
Of the sweet taste of life
And the palatable future
Because I'm here
And life for you and I
Tastes quite bitter

I find it so easy to get lost in you
When I look into your eyes
I can't look eslewhere
you have this fire in your eyes
That attracts the pyromaniac in me
I'm afraid of you
I'm trapped within your words
The truth tells me we could never be
But your eyes pull me into a world that says otherwise
You're pulling me close
And the fight that I used to put up
Isn't here anymore
As time elapsed
I'm getting more lost within you
And I'm believing that you and I
Are supposed to be getting closer
I rushed to you
We embraced
You were cold
But I told myself it was just the weather
I never realized that as I got closer to you
The gusts of cold wind got stronger
You let me go first
I found that the warmth and the sanity in me
Returned
I knew that I have let you take me over
If I never had gotten close to you
But that is impossible
Fate knew that the moment I became enthralled with you
I was destined to want to be without you

I hold on to the memories
I will never love someone
The way that I love you
We're torn apart
And I feel that I need to tell you more than ever
That I love you
that I don't need to be labeled your lover
In order to stay by your side for the rest of your life
That would be nice
But some things just aren't meant to happen
The taste of your lips and neck
Can remain unknown
But the distance and lack of knowlege of your current being
Kills me
I can't truly say how I feel
Because words seem to come up short
I'll search dictionaries and thesauruses
But the word love seems closest to it
Don't let me go
Because I can't let you go
My heart refuses it
And my mind runs the moments
Of you holding me when I was most weak
Could you let me go?
Have you let me go?
Has only my love for you
Pass the test off time?
.....Tell me how you are every blue moon
Because I can't stop thinking about you.

He haunts me so sweetly
That I forget he's my nightmare