What the hell is wrong with me...?!
i'm tired of living my life like this, of having to live with this nuisance called a heart, beating slowly, annoyingly, loudly...i can hear its beat when all goes still, it's slow rhythmic beat, and i want it to stop, to leave me the hell alone...to go away...
i'm tired of having these cursed things called emotions toying with me, making me feel first happy and then sad, then depressed, almost as if i'm bipolar or as if i don't know what i'm supposed to feel anymore. i'm tired of it, i want it all to end, just as much as my life...
i'm tired of this place called society, the place i call the light...what am i even here for in the first place...? has anything good come of it? can it really be that this is the place i am to be in order to love her...? why can i not be by myself again, to live my life the way i know ti's supposed to be: cold, sad and alone? why is it that she anchors me here in this place...?
why am i even alive anymore? why can't i just sink back into that dark void that has comforted me for so many long years? why can't i just slip away and let it all go?
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