well, my friend Knetoka posted a very scary life experience, so it gave me the courage to post one of mine......
awighty, fist thing's first, my parents fight alot, in fact, it's a miracle they're not fighting right now, XD jk, they only get in like 3 fights a week, and one big one every other week, so it's not that bad.
i don't know what to say, second thing's second? well, when i was little, i thought this was a dream, but came to relize it wasn't and this has been my secret up until now, and i've only told my closest friends, so that would be only two people, one of which i was so little when i told her, she doesn't even remember anymore, lol.
okay, well, when i was little, my mom would always run away, taking me and living in different houses. she would live with one of her friends, or even a complete stranger, because she tried to keep me away from my dad, so she'd just disapear one day with me, and be gone for weeks-months.
(you can imagine how happy this made my dad)
well, my dad pressed charges, and one night while my mom was at his house, i remember police coming in and grabbing hold of my mom.
i was screaming and crying and really afraid of the police, because they were taking my mom away and i didn't know why. neighbors were gathered outside, and the police were all shouting at eachother. it scared me, and i was just trying to run away, but someone was holding onto my arm, and i couldn't. i don't remember who, i think it was a police man, but it could have been my dad. i remember people saying "get the kid" and "calm that lady down"
the person screaming the loudest was my mom, who was being held back. she just kept saying one thing, and it's the clearest thing of the whole memory she'd say over and over again: "goodbye, <my name> im going to die, they're going to kill me. mommy's going to die because of you." and she was screaming at the top of her lungs.
someone eventually dragged me away, and i don't remember much after that. i know i lived with my dad for three years after, (best three years of my life) and my mom was who knows where. i don't know how, but my parents managed to get together again after those three years of being appart, and fight almost non-stop like i've said before.
my mom wasn't much of a teacher's pet in school, she played hooky almost every day, and she's very strict. whenever i mention her past, she gets very angry, so i don't dare ask anymore, but since she never went to middle school, high school, college, etc, she expects that everything is easy, and yelled at me last week for getting a "B+" on my report card.
to be honest, she still really scares me, lol, and now that im older we fight alot, as well, and my mom thinks my dad and i are planning against her or something, so is very ill-tempered when there aren't people to impress around. i know i have to be greatful for having everything i do, though, and am really always complaining and selfish, so, thank you Knetoka and Little Star Catcher for listening to all my agonizing complaints, lol. you guys can tell me to shut up anytime you want by the way, because i know i complain far to much. (which im trying to be a less selfish person) thanks for never giving up on me, because i really don't ever show how lucky i am, even though i know how greatful i ought to be. you guys are the best, and thanks for being my friends. -^^-
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