sumtime dis month i'm gonna hve my freshman schedule mailed 2 my howze! it sux b/c most of my frndz r going 2 da older HS while i have 2 go 2 da brand new HS. Here r sum advantages n disadvantages:
Advantages: only freshman n sophmore yrs, brand new, getting away 4om people i hate most, less stress, more getting out of da howze.
Disadvantages: only goin w/ abt 1/8 of my frndz, far 4om home, getting up earlier, making new frndz, possibly dieing mentaly.
i guess goin 2 da new HS isn't so bad but it could b worse. i could change 4om bad people, pretendin 2 b real, or i could start cutting again. bringing up how i used 2 cut brings me 2 tears.
my rents never found out so i guess u could say i stopped by myself. da only people who knew @ da time were my sister, monserratt, tyana, and maybe sum1 else. sumtimes i withdrawl very badly. sumtimez i still hve da need 2 cut but, im pretty cured as far as i no. i used 2 write 3veryday in a spiral. 1 of my best frndz found it n wondered y i worte in it all da time. wondered y i cared abt dat thing more dan anything else. @ da time, i did care abt dat thing, even more dan my lyfe. so 1 day, i asked him 2 do sumthinm 4 me n he snatched my spiral n ran out da front door of da skool buildin. by da time i waz outside, he waz already though 3 pages. so he already new dat i hadn't succeded in cuttin yet. so i snatched it bak n he told me dat he noticed dat he played a big role in my lyfe. n he waz telling da truth. he told me he waz worried abt me, but i covered it up n told him i waz perfectly fine. he wanted 2 shread dat thing so bad.
anywayz, i just got comcast so now i hve on demand! i luv watchin da music videos on there. there iz dis song buy Killswitch engage on there dat i absolutly love! itz called holy diver. u should check it out.
Dudez, i cn't decide on wat i should b when im older......
dat iz sumthing i'll hve 2 get bak w/ u on.... heart
