I'm not sure what's wrong with me... I've been feeling anxious and slightly depressed. Especially when it comes down to me getting a job. I'm definitely trying, I've applied to many. But I haven't heard back from any. But i'm nervous about the idea, I wasn't last year, or atleast I was but it's not as bad as it is this year. But that's not it, I haven't been able to sleep (1:30 am now) and i've lost my appetite. I used to be excited about art, and now I can't even finish a project. get bored easily. I get bored of anything too easily. I don't feel like going out, I feel like s**t and I'm constantly thinking about suicide, or I just knock myself down. I don't have the highest self-esteem, and I don't have the highest courage. Talking to people seems like a challenge (then again that's just because of my shyness) it's not a crippling fear, I can't talk to a person, it's just I don't know how to describe it. It's only when i'm giving a speech or presenting something is when I get all shaky and nervous, to the point where my voice breaks and my heart beats fast. I I'm I losing my mind or is this a phase.... I guess I will never know.
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