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You lied to me


You promised me forever


And you lied to me


You promised me that we would always stand together


And you lied to me


We used to be so close, and nothing was untouched or broken


But you broke it


It was unwritten, but said loudly


And you snapped it in your hands, and laughed at me when I told you


When I told you the pain


How could you? How could you hurt me in this way?


What happened to the boy who used to hold my hand when I cried?


Who would laugh with me near every day?


My oldest friend


My best friend


Lied to me


And I loved you


I loved you like my own blood


I thought it was for always, a friendship ever lasting


But you lied to me


But I don’t love you any more


I hate you


I hate you with all the fire with in me


And I want you to know that I’m not sorry for feeling it


Because you don’t care


You aren’t a friend


You are a cold, lying and dark boy


And I hate you


I didn’t think that I could ever hate you


But I was wrong… so, so wrong


I cried for you, did you know that?


I lay in my room and wept hopelessly for hours on end


I haven’t slept properly for two nights thinking about you


I can’t even think of you with out feeling sick


And how dare you tell me I was over reacting


I have never asked you for anything except not to do that


You know what it did to my family, who it broke people around me


And you did it.


And I hate you for doing it


Did you know that I have real friends though?


When you did this to me, my real friends stood by


Held my hand


I will miss you


But not this you


The old you


The one I used to love like my own


So you can go and do that


The only thing I ever asked you not to do


Because I won’t catch you


You can fall and I won’t be there to pick you up like I always have been


You will fall


And you will not be caught


Is that scary?


Do you like that idea?


Because obviously I am nothing to you, it wasn’t a big ask, but you knew


And don’t lie to me and say you didn’t


I hate you


So please go, don’t come back like you have asked to


I can’t deal with it now


I can’t deal with you now


I just want you to leave


And if you get better, or stop


Good


But I still wont want you


Because this is it


This is the last thing that I will ever tell you


Not a word of love as you leave our hometown


Not a word of thanks


But a word of disappointment and anger


I hate you


But I love the you that I grew to love


The you I was best friends with for near of a decade


That you will always stay with in me


But the one that stands before me, I have not a single place of love in my heart for them.


Goodbye……. talk2hand