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Well I got to sleep at 6am and with those 2 hours sleep (at least thats how much I think I got probably less) I had a nightmare ~_~

Though Alicia was in it smile . But it was about her and jay.

Due to the fact that I only had 2 hours of sleep and that I never dream I know it was my subconscious mind trying to solve a problem im just not sure what it is.

It was about Alicia and Jay living together I saw that much. then there was face book page with a risk board with a red line starting where Alicia used to live then where she now lived with Jay...

I have no clue what it means, I already know that I don't want them to live together but really its none of my business and the only reason I post anything on here is to get it out (Sorry for all the rants and such >_< wink I mean its far better then cutting myself which I have done now and then.


Today while in SS my chest suddenly got like 50 hard beats (it was my heart) and then everything went faint (I didn't pass out though) I almost did pass out I know that much. Other then that nothing really happened today Other then almost crying cause of Ink Spell (related myself to Fraid and Meggie how they love each other then Fraid died...) in the middle of LC (Learning Center.. I don't need to be in it but the idiots keep putting me in it.).

Well bye thanks for reading whoever you are, be it for a better understanding of me, be it for fun or just to make fun of me later still thanks for reading.

Yeah so I'm alive... I know surprising huh?

Yeah so anyway, I'm still lovesick, broke up with a girl in real life that I don't like anymore and just want one person now (Alicia) .


I've been told by Alicia that I'm not allowed to edit my profile so I wont (Yeah I'd do anything she asks me to... well almost anything.)

I wrote two poems today and their in the spell check and form stage. Ummm My ex got together with a guy. Broke up the same day, (or the next day) got together with someone els and now shes ganna break up with him too and what really pisses me off is that he (was) my friend.

son of a b***h wanted me to let them be alone in the anime club, I would have been like sure go ahead but right now thats all I have right now so I don't want it to get shut down. Thats all I do with my lunches otherwise I go sit in a corner and read or just stare at the walls I hardly ever eat lunch anymore.

Anyway he called me a jerk and I should REALLY beat the s**t out of him but I'm not cause well I'm not a violent person but omg he tried to have sex with my ex the first day they got together. I don't really care but shes only 13 and hes like 16 or something So I do care about that.(its legally considered rape ~_~)

So who knows depends on how he treats me and how much he uses his d**k to think if I'm ganna beat the s**t out of him or not. Oh and I don't take s**t from anyone usually at school anymore.

Someone pushed me in the hall ways while I was waiting for the keys to the anime club (we have a runner now razz ) and hes one of the retards that always bug us. I just said WTF and kick the locker that I almost hit into so hard that the idiot went running. I really hate those people we've done NOTHING to them and they are always asses to us.



Anyway I should try to get some sleep I got school in 4 hours and well yeah... *sighs* hey maybe I'll have a dream about Alicia... Shes going for coffee with her boy friend jay today >_> Thats all I'm ganna be thinking about today at school *sighs* well w/e I should be used to being depressed and lovesick by now shouldn't I? I mean come on I've felt like this ever since last summer.