1 year later I return! Shoop-da-woop!
Jeremy & I indeed did break up..... But I indeed also am too weak to stand alone. I began talking to Brian again, and we became a couple in June 2016 (5 months ago). I don't trust him. He is WAY too flirtatious with other girls and I hate that about him.
When I confronted him about it, he made a comment that his ex girlfriend also had complained about that trait of his. Frankly, if even his ex complained about it, and she practically lived with him, I can't imagine that he would really change considering the fact that I'm now 2000 miles away.
He doesn't talk to me, he doesn't tell me diddly s**t of what is going on in his life, and if I call him out on ANYTHING he throws this obnoxious temper tantrum where he just starts hating himself and going all "woe-is-me" sort of deal. It makes him look like a teenager, and it's annoying as all hell. Also, his mom does everything for him. She does his laundry, packs his lunches, etc. If she could go to work for him and earn his money for him, I'm sure she'd do that too. His mom is definitely taken for granted, but she is really really nice and I like her a lot. Brian.... *sighs* He's good for now.
When asked what his greatest fear and desires were, he said he was afraid to die before becoming a father, and greatest desire was to have a daughter. *slap in the face moment* What the heck. Brian is a child. And he wants to have a child?? He is certified insane in my book. 3nodding
I also have these repeated bouts of crushing depression and anxiety--I'm having one now actually. Yay~. I am miserable at school. I hate every second I am here and cannot wait until I can finally go home. Each and every exam is an exercise in mind-reading. I study and study and study, but nothing the professors emphasized in class is ever on the exam, and instead they ask these horrifically confusing questions that throw my brain for a loop. I hate school so much, I truly don't even give a s**t if I flunked out anymore. Thanks to this school, I don't want to be a veterinarian. I just want to get out of here and go home. I don't care what else I have to do. I am miserable in every aspect of my life here in VA.
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