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For the last two week's im not the same and this is why. I lost my house I lost my job I lost my gilr. My one and only love. I know that she sead she will be bake for me and i know she will but I dont see it. Not that I gave up no but I...I...!? I dont know and I miss her so moch I dont know why did i had to opin my mauth and tell everything to her mother. now My love is in bakorsvill and I want her with me. and I dont want to cry but i want to. Something insaed me tells me to cry that i shud cry it will make me feol more bedore. I know that ar love is still on and that you love me from were you ar but baby I miss you I rely miss you. And I sad i dont want to cry im depores and my sadness is geting the best of me. Love i know that you have to be a way for some time and I do want you to be safe and saund but cant you chus to be with me. I want you to be with me and I know that it was harde and it still harde to do but plessmy love i know you want to be with me and i want to be with you.

And...And well school will start soon and i wish that you were with me and that you can see me com from my house and see you and naesec and poritty but your not with me no more how can i be ok wen your not with me. and the two time that i sead that i had to move to sandeigo to life a bedore life you told me not to go. that you dont want me to go a way from you and the love theat we have. two time love two time and yet. I did my bets to stay here with you by your saed and this hapins to us. you had to go I did my best to changs your maend and not let you go but you chos to go a way to be safe and I do want you with me my love. your all i have to live for and i want you to be ok and safe too.

I know I shud not say this but I have to i want to say it so. love do you remmebor the night that i gave you your forst kiss and can you tell me what did you say to me wen the bus came for you that night. I know what you sead to me "WOW" jusr "WOW"...>.^ and then you and i becam one sence that night. and the I know I know we had ar forts date too. and what did we went to see on ar froest date my love. yes the last pirates of the carbbean:3. and the for the forst anavorary what i do love I went out of school to bey you the things you love and I mest up on one but you loved it. and then I toke you out to a romanti dinore just the two of us you and me. we take and take and i wantid to say something to you love but i gess it was not the time to say it. and and the day we bothe dich calls just to have a free day you and i. you and me out saed the wether was groayte i set donw and you lade on me and you colsd you eyes and went to sleep. and for the forst time i sead to my self im a good guy im doing a good job with you and i that. a sad lonly boy not a man but a boy. and how can you love me. you opend your eye s to me and kisst me and sead i love you for you bec you love me for me. and then you went bake to sleep. I wantid to cry but insted i kisst you on you forhed and let the day go on and on. then one year goby and you and me became more and more of the sam you like the same things as i do and i like the sam things as you do. ya you and i ar so mochs the same you and i my love. like the day i told you something to sad but funny. that wen i was a kid that yuse tu eat sad and i dont know why and that i wod lick rock's to. and that in the sad i wod dig all the way down to get to the inden-clay and play with it. and you sead to me that you and i have the same this wen we wore kids wow you and i ar two in one.

yes love i remmebore all the thins you and i did and i will never for get them and i want to do more with you love and thats why i want to be with you. now love you tell me that i dont love you tell me that not true why i do love you bec i chersh all the things that you and i do. and soon love verey soon you and i will have two yeras together but i wont be ther with you wen the day come why becouse you and i ar fare a way and you moved to a pays that you have to be safe from you stepfather and well and me too. its not a borak love no its just like you sead its a i'll see you laytre but a good long one and i dont know wen you'll be bake in to my arms my love. Now tell me my love that i dont love becouse i do and i want you with me i want you and just you my love and i'll be here wayting for your reton i just hop my haret wont kill me befor you come to me and not com at all. but you know and i know that i love you just as you love me.


So love i beg you to come bake home with me just with me.....We will see what you and i can do in the fuchor ok love i wont let you donw. but love just give me some time ok. i just dont think that my haret can take it. i just dont wanrt to be sad that all. cry cry heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart redface crying crying cry