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This will be a journal entry that I will pour my heart and soul into. I'm going to tell what it was like growing up obese for most of my life and then doing something about it. Well, here I go.

I was actually skinny up until around 2nd grade. I was about average height and weight for my age but for some reason when I was seven-years-old I just gained quite a bit of weight. Ofcourse at that young age it actually looked cute but as the years went on, I gained even more weight and it just looked bad. Like most other overweight kids, I was made fun of. I would go to a Youth Center before and after school and this is where I would usually get bullied and harassed. It wasn't really a group of people, just one girl who thought she was better than everyone else. And she wasn't like most bullies who harass people everyday, she just made hurtful side remarks that really started to add up. Like one day I was playing with I think it was a polo stick and ball. There were only enough left for two other people to play so she comes up and asks me. When I say no she walks away and says "I guess someone had too much fried chicken". She kept saying it over and over again so I started to cry. A person working there asked if I wanted to talk about it and I said no so she just walked away. She didn't even check up on me later!! She just walked away as if nothing ever happened. I went over to the water fountain and let the cold water run over my face and mouth. One of her friends came out to apologize for her and I said that I forgave her but really I didn't. A few months later I was walking down the hallway and she told me to "move faster fatty". I tried to ignore her but once again she just kept on repeating it. I turned around and said "Just walk around". And unlike all those cheesey movies with the bullies that back off when you yell at them she said "I would if I could get around you". I didn't cry this time. I just hated her. That was 6 years ago and to this day I still hate her and I doubt that I will ever forgive her.

I continued to gain weight up until the middle of eigth grade. No one was bullying me anymore but I still practically hated myself for being so big. Deciding that I would finally do something about my weight, I made a litte graph that had dates on the bottom and weights from 120-180 lbs. on the side. I weighed 167 lbs. and my goal was to get below 130. Each Wednesday I would record my weight on the chart. Most of the weeks it went down becaue I made sure to watch my eating and get exercise everyday. Some weeks it did go up which was very discouraging but I still kept up at it. I continued to record my weight until about mid-July of this past Summer which was when the graph ran out of room and I would have needed to flip it over and start a new one. I never got around to it but I still continued to try to lose weight. The final recording on the graph was on July 16th and I weighed 143.5 lbs.

Now I weigh about 137 lbs. and I've hit a plateau. I never get below 135 but I never go above 140 150. Ofcourse I still try to lose weight because I really want to reach my goal but I figure that staying at this weight wouldn't be that bad because now I am the average weight for my height.

If you want to PM me about anything go ahead. I'd be willing to answer any questions (I doubt you have any) or just talk. I have officially lost 30 lbs. and am happy with myself. Don't let others bring you down and don't wait until it's too late to change something.

Peace out!!!! mrgreen