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I have realized in my life that it's quite complicated. Looking back on my past, it will slowly repeat but not in the same matter, just in a similar way. I really dislike the whole "the past is the present" or "history repeats its self". so as my stat says, at the moment, "i dont want to get close to you because i dont want to lose you. <3" im dealing with troubling issues. it's probably just me making a big deal out of it or mistaking it but i think its true. if u know me, u'd know what happened to me back in 7th grade. my best guy friend who i became too close too developed feelings for me. and outta my guilt, as it was the first time I've encountered this, i started to have feelings but soon realized they were just feelings of guilt not affection. now i'm starting to have feelings for some guy i'm close too. i dont wanna break what we have now like what happened in the past thats in the process of mending but i dont wanna deny it either. im just hoping that my mind is wrong about what my heart says. i hope that nothing bad will come from this. if you're reading this, thanks for reading? i just needed to get this off my chest so im good now. i hope. emo

~Kanami