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today just isnt my day! about 2 weeks ago my cat got bit by a spider and she would not eat at all! about five days later she ate, but it only lasted for about 2 days sad ...since then her fur has been falling out in big chunks, along with her skin! her skin is as hard as a turtles shell! so when the big chunks of tough skin fell, then she ends up with soft skin thats as soft as a newborn baby. she seems like if shes living a nightmare! i know that for a fact. now she wont stop moewing cause it hurts everytime she moves, and her legs are getting tired from staying in the same place, so she cant really do anything! it hurts if she sleeps, it hurts when she eats...anything will hurt her! gonk now we're going to put her to sleep, and i had her ever since i was 6, and she still would have been healthy if that spider didnt come and bite her crying man, just typing this is making me cry, i cant stand this! i cant even touch her or pet her or anything cause it will hurt her plus my mom said i might get sick ((yeah like i care if i get sick!))......all i can say is that im gonna miss you Nina cry just had to put it here in my journal cause i just thought it might make me feel better if i let it all out...

6:52 p.m.

well they put her to sleep, they said another reason why her skin was falling off was cause that spider ended up giving her skin cancer. They wouldnt let my mom see, but i begged the vet and told him my reason for me to see...i hugged nina and kissed her my last...she started meowing when i took some steps back and the vet grabbed hold of her...i didnt start crying until i went into the car, my mom started saying that shes in a better place now with no pain, no suffering...which made me happy...but to be honest, I was a part of her life neutral without me around, its like a body with no legs and arms. i remember how happy she was, how she would ALWAYS rush to me whenever she saw me or heard me. she was so healthy and she still had plenty of years ahead of her...i wonder, wherever she is, if im there with her...? cry she was my favorite pet ever! i love her as much as my oldest cat Simba and my 2nd youngest, Pepper...simba is old and blind and still lives happy, i would understand if he does, but not Nina...she wasnt ready for that gonk im sorry, its just so hard to loose a close one to you thats always there to bring you a smile crying im pretty sure you know how i feel.