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Or risk being...OFFENDED. Dum dum duhhh.
Anyway, I've revived my Gaia journal from the dead to bring you THIS:
Spread it 'round the Internet like butter.
Or wildfire.
Or...whatever.
 Madsie · Fri Jan 11, 2008 @ 05:37am · 0 Comments |
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Well, I've had nothing to do for quite some time now.
Once in a while my parents will want to go to the movies, or shopping. They don't believe in alone time anymore, so I go with them to make them happy.
Of course, they buy me food, so that's always good.
Still, even they're starting to wish I spent more time WITH MY FRIENDS.
<any of you reading this?>
Of course, the situation stands: No phone. No car. No money. What the hell am I going to do?
Eventually, if we keep insisting upon meeting with one another, our parents' generosity will run out, and they'll be quicker to make the connection that friends=/= good grades. So we'll have to be self-reliant if we want our way, right?
Well, no.
Anyway, I've slipped back into 7th-grade status: Forget real people and communicate via Gaia.
Via Gaia, eh? That'll make a good saying.
Madsie · Tue Jul 11, 2006 @ 05:50am · 0 Comments |
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Summer surprise 1: 10th grade.
Well, it's not really a surprise, but it seems so shocking. Like, remember, turning 10 years old, and you're like, PWNT, 2 DIGITS.
It's like that.
Summer surprise 2: End of Childhood
Didn't see it coming. Not MY childhood. Hoshi/Sora-chan's childhood. I saw him for 2 days this week before he left for 6 weeks of French Horn. Then it's off to Upper School, taking the SATs earlier than the rest of the world, and shoving his higher education in my face. Not that he means to. But since he's all done with that whole "childhood" thing, maybe he'll come to understand his own actions as well as I understand them.
Summer surprise 3: Onee-san
I didn't think I'd be able to survive the summer with her in the house, but we got along today. Things might actually even improve. Wouldn't it be something to have TWO sisters?
Summer surprise 4: Gaia Layout.
emo
Summer surprise 5: Emotion: _______
He's gone off for a month, or something, and I miss him. I didn't think I was capable of missing a person for such a silly reason, but the difference between knowing he's around and knowing he's far away is staggering. Does this make me a full human being? Is this why they write those god-awful songs and make those terrible movies? I'm not sure if I like it. All I know is that when he's gone, I miss him, and when he's here, I don't feel like I need to spend time with him. What kind of person does that make me, eh?
Well...to say the least, I'm surprised. The summer has yet to begin.
Madsie · Sat Jun 24, 2006 @ 11:40pm · 0 Comments |
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So. Kingdom Hearts 2.
Wow.
13. Gummis. My inner mechanic (when she's not shooting or crashing things, or running an accessory shop) loves fiddling with them thar gummis. And, oh the fiddling there is to do...I'm not even at a point where I have any good pieces. Hopefully before the end there will be a way to get pieces more easily...that's my only complaint. Oh, and the help screen is frigging LONG.
12. Graphics in Port Royal. Trying to explain them would not do them justice. Go see for yourself. @___@
11. Roxas-x=Sora. All the Organization-types have x in their names...I can't be the only one who's noticed this...
10. They gave Cid a voice actor. 1 line so far, but that's a good thing. That voice made me want to turn off the volume and then plug my ears. Geez.
9. There is no item 9.
8. No, the beginning does not compare to KH1. They're trying too hard, and....FAIL. X_____X
7. Schoolgirl Kairi?!
6. We NEED a Usual Spot. We just need an empty lot that people won't kick us out of, a couch, a dartboard, and a save point. Shouldn't be too hard. Cept for the empty lot. I know where to get a save point.
5. Where do they keep getting that ice cream?
4. Sora's EATING that ice cream on the front screen. What happened to the fish bones?
3. HOW long did that game store guy say the game was? I heard...120 hours!?
2. Mickey in nobody cloak? Maybe he should be Mickeyx? Miyexck? rolleyes
So there you have it. Remember thos trailers? With the counting down? And the 2?
--sigh-- Well, trailers are old news now, I suppose. On with the game. No use talking about it until I beat it...108 ingame hours from now, that is.
Madsie · Thu May 11, 2006 @ 08:03am · 0 Comments |
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So, my new favorite move is V for Vendetta. I saw it and it was amazing. Almost a perfect movie.
So we go out and have Italian, and it's perfect, and life is wonderful. So I go home and sit down at my computer, and who should enter but my MOTHER. With another broken-record lecture and cursewords and unnecessary anger.
I can't even put it to words. I can't express it. It's stuck. It's trapped. I can't get it out, and I want it out. Now. Take it out. I don't care what you have to do to me, as long as I don't have to feel this anymore. This hatred. This eye for hypocrisy. Make me into a robot so that I don't have to be the one to say, You're a liar. You say one thing and then do another. You're never satisfied. You pick at things. You can't just let people be happy, can you? You only speak in shouts. You only understand commands barked from a higher ranking officer? If I whispered something, would you even hear it? I don't care. I'll be a clone if I don't have to be the one to point out that clones exist.
It was such a perfect night, and then she had to go and ruin it. She's my MOM. Fifteen years I've stuggled against her grip, and she still has total and complete power over me. The power to make me feel like I'm a worthless emo kid. The power to make me really believe that I'll be stuck here forever, that my only escapes will be false. The power to ruin something brilliant. No matter what I do, what revenge I take, it will never satisfy me. Equivalent exchange won't turn back time and fix things. No matter what I do, she'll never be in my position.
How is this all right? Why should ANY person have that much power? Shouldn't there be checks? Balances? Democracy's a lie, it doesn't exist. Rule by the people, my a**. More like rule by the people who hold the strings. Rule by the people who step on other people.
There's that inner emo talking again. Gotta shut her up once in a while. The idea was supposed to be: V for Vendetta. Brilliant movie.
Madsie · Sun May 07, 2006 @ 05:02am · 0 Comments |
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So, every time I log on Gaia, I get this nagging feeling...
WRITE SOMETHING.
So here's me going, That sounds like a good idea. I'd like to write something.
Well, what do you wanna write about?
Er...I dunno...
Kay, just keep going then.
And that's that! Like, the whole idea just walks away. I really DO wanna write something, but I've got nothing to say! Nothing worth reading, anyway. I mean, I could say plenty about the injustices of the world or even just talk about high school, but why waste words? It's not like anyone wants to hear about that anyway. They say, "Write what you know, write what you know" but I don't know much of anything. One who knows nothing can understand nothing....right? So how am I really to write anything without understanding it?
--sigh-- I ought to find myself a new dream...maybe one that I have some means of accomplishing. Too much ambition is bad for a character, but what about no ambition at all? I mean, they say "everyone needs a dream" even more than they say "write what you know".
They say. Ambiguous pronoun. Maybe I'll be able to concentrate on writing once I stop taking English. rofl
Madsie · Tue Feb 21, 2006 @ 08:12am · 1 Comments |
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I was feeling angsty a couple days ago, and I said to myself, "Madsie, stop being such an emo kid!"
And then a stopped for a second and I was like, "Woah, am I an emo kid?"
I might be a bit too giggly to be an emo kid...but I don't know...other than that...
I must now view my life from a different perspective. AM I some kind of emo kid? I'll get back to you on this...
Madsie · Sun Dec 25, 2005 @ 07:53am · 4 Comments |
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Haha. Just about everyone has noticed the similarities between Halloween 2K4 and the new S CORP guild...I'm looking forward to this...
Still, it annoys me a bit when people get overhyped for Christmas...I might be a little too Jewish for my own good... sweatdrop
Madsie · Wed Nov 16, 2005 @ 12:28am · 0 Comments |
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Rawr.
Madsie · Tue Nov 08, 2005 @ 09:46pm · 0 Comments |
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