When did people get to be so mean? Like seriously. There is like this tension in the air around me I think. I think I was trying to find some info out about an Rp and I was getting insulted left and right. Defending myself never helps either. Because generally I insult them back. But things only get worse from there. Comfront them about it and they play stupid. Like they had no idea. Like What the ******** man?
I think someone called me a noob too. Im not an F-ing Noob! I have been on Gaia for like..ever! I know how to Rp im not an idiot! I don't think I have had anyone ask me to Rp with them and then when I bring it up later they totally shoot me down! Like damn!
I checked on some of the Rp's I have left a while ago too. Its safe to say they died or moved on just fine without me. I suppose I should be happy that they didn't need me to live. But Joining again would be pointless for sure.
I have had words that wouldn't usually mean anything suddenly bring a bit of a sting of pain.
Just to put some down:
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"Yeah, but I always have 3+ roleplays going on. I'm just greedy. I have several going on right now, so I really don't need to roleplay with you.Guess ya shouldn't have shot me dooown. Now you're bored and I'm content.
"Consider that."
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"I'm just saying most people are very into their set way of roleplaying in pairs that they probably won't make room for your character. "
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[[Actually ****, it wasn't that literate. I could make my posts pretty like that if i wanted, but i only have 3 tekFormats and I'm using them all, and it would be too much trouble.]]
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I don't think I am liked here, and I don't think I am wanted much either...Maybe coming back was a bad idea....
The feeling it gives me is like a chill that runs through my body. Neither warm or cold but just a chill that makes your nose tingle. My throat feels tight and I feel all I can do is hang my head and blame myself.
I can't quite remember what I did wrong but I'm sure what ever idea i can fathom is beyond all of the things I have done wrong. Maybe I deserve it after all. If this is what its like..then...I would rather leave.
I ran away from home and got pretty far, I almost ended up dead....
But I would rather lay half dead on the side of the road then face so much...crap like this again. Its moments like these I feel so hollow inside.
It is then I know when I am most truly alone...
 Devil of Diamonds · Thu May 28, 2009 @ 03:52am · 2 Comments |
