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Yay!!! My plushies are back!!!! *dances* That makes me so happy!!!!!!! blaugh 3nodding xd biggrin heart 3nodding blaugh
 Catul · Tue Apr 18, 2006 @ 11:51pm · 0 Comments |
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OMG!!!!!! NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! |
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MY SNO YETI PLUSHIE AND MY COCO KITTY PLUSHIE ARE BOTH MISSING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T KNOW WHERE THEY ARE OR WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM!!!!!!!!!! crying crying gonk gonk crying crying gonk gonk I sent an e-mail to them about it, but I don't know if they'll be able to help or not.... *cries* crying gonk crying gonk crying
Catul · Sat Dec 24, 2005 @ 10:08pm · 1 Comments |
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I was browsing through the Durem Salon today trying on different hair styles. I saw this awesome hair style and had to get it! I think it fits my avie. She's so rockin' now!!!! xd
Catul · Fri Nov 19, 2004 @ 12:19am · 0 Comments |
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Ok, yesterday I went to the psyche's office because my Wellbutrine is giving me panic attacks and trouble sleeping. So he prescribed Paxil CR for my anxiety problems... I was going over the list of cautions and possible side effects and it wasn't too comforting:
CAUTIONS:
THIS MEDICINE IS NOT RECOMMENDED for use in children or adolescents under 18 years of age. DO NOT SUDDENLY STOP TAKING THIS MEDICINE without checking with your doctor. Side effects may occur if this medicine is suddenly stopped. If you experience anxiety, agitation, panic attacks, difficulty sleeping, irritability, hostility, impulsive feelings, severe restlessness, or worsening depression contact your doctor as soon as possible. These may be signs that your condition is worsening or that your treatment with this medicine should be evaluated.
POSSIBLE SIDE EFFECTS:
SIDE EFFECTS, that may go away during treatment, include nervousness, trouble sleeping, drowsiness, fatigue, weakness, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, loss of appetite, dry mouth, sweating, dizziness, lightheadedness, or changes in sexual function. If they continue or are bothersome, check with your doctor. CONTACT YOUR DOCTOR IMMEDIATELY if you experience mental or mood changes, seizures, unusual bleeding or bruising, thoughts of hurting yourself, or worsening of depression.
Isn't this wonderful for me? I'm now taking an anxiety relief medicine that can make me suicidal, have seizures, give me even more trouble sleeping, worsen my depression, worsen my anxiety problems, and make me hostile... oh joy.... stare
Catul · Wed Oct 20, 2004 @ 01:28pm · 0 Comments |
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OMG! Run from the ALIENS!!! |
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Last night (more like this morning at 3 a.m.), KC and I saw a U.F.O.! We were trying to go to sleep and KC asked what this flickering light was in the sky... I told her it was probably a dying star or a plane... Then she said it wasn't moving, I looked at it and said, "OMG It's a U.F.O.!" I started freaking out a little... sweatdrop So we observed it through a telescope (which worked like crap) and a pair of binoculars (which worked better than the telescope) for about an hour... what we noticed through the telescope is that when you look at a star and pull it out of focus, it'll splay out into a larger circle of light... but when we did that with what we saw, it splayed out into a disk-like shape! We could also see different lights being flickered from it... it looked like there were blue, green, orange, and red lights... We then noticed after the hour of observation, it did change position in the sky... but! It looked like it was moving with the stars (because of the Earth's rotation, stars will "drift" across the sky)!!!!! And plus it looked like it was wiggling a little... Anyway... KC just told me that she looked for the U.F.O. again tonight (we noticed that it appeared within the viscinity of the Orion constellation) and she said it wasn't there!!!! That only confirms that it was an alien space craft!!! scream
Teh al13ns r c0m1ng 2 g3t j00!!!! scream gonk
Catul · Mon Oct 11, 2004 @ 01:50am · 1 Comments |
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songs that describe how I feel... |
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Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Green Day
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's ******** up and everythings all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk away!
Extraordinary Girl
Green Day
She's an Extraordinary girl
In an ordinary world
And she cant seem to get away
He lacks the courage in his mind
Like a child left behind
Like a pet left in the rain
She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying
She sees the mirror of herself
And image she wants to sell
To anyone willing to buy
He steals the image in her kiss
From her hearts apocalypse
From the one called whatsername
She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying
She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
Some days he's not worth trying
Now that they're both up on it
She gets so sick of crying
She's an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
Broken
Seether Featuring Amy Lee
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
[x2]
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore
*sigh* So sad....
Catul · Sat Oct 02, 2004 @ 01:23am · 0 Comments |
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It's times like this I hate... |
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It's times like this I hate my life... times when my emotions get away from me for just 5 seconds and bring me down... Then I can't help but think of all the bad things even though I don't want to think about them... Then that reminds me of how lonely I am... how I wish I had someone to love, someone to hold me... then I think, "well... maybe there isn't anyone out there to love me..." even though I know someday I'll find someone to fill that empty void, right now I can't see it happening... And I wonder if all of my delusions of what love is like are real...
It's times like this I wish I wasn't 17... I wish I was 5, at a time in my life when I didn't have to worry about anything that I have to worry about now... at a time when I didn't have to worry about having mental breakdowns like this everytime I didn't feel good or about having panic attacks in the middle of class and trying to keep calm so I don't cause a scene in class...
cry cry cry cry cry cry
Catul · Mon Sep 27, 2004 @ 12:19am · 1 Comments |
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Coooooooooool! Journals!!!!!! |
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Wow... this is very interesting... I think since I already have a journal on deviantArt I'm gonna use the one on here for mostly rants whenever I get pissed off at school or ppl or ppl at school... something along the lines of that... 3nodding
Catul · Sun Sep 26, 2004 @ 06:38am · 1 Comments |
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