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I've read something that captured my heart heart heart heart when i was looking for stuff for my profile; it is me and who i am, sort of anyway here it is, it's not mine but i just love it.


I am a fallen angel

The earth is my home

I went away from the light


Because I preferred the comfort

Of the shadows and the night




I am not evil

Though I am not considered good

But yet all are told to fear me

Just because I am misunderstood

Just because I am draped in black

And I no longer have white wings

Sprouting from my back

I am forever destined to remain alone

Ostracized by god-fearers

In my new, mortal home




I am still immortal

For it is said that my punishment is to watch

While the rest of the world suffers

And the plans of do-gooders are botched

I can never lend a hand


To fight for what is right

Or try to save the day

I am ousted from the flock

Though I am more or less the same




Each of you are tainted at birth

Yet you go through great pains

To remove the mark

Baptism is quite a holy shower

Though you never lose the scars

Don't get me wrong,


I think it's a wonderful thing

To try to save your souls

From the eternal choas

Living in sin can bring




But I am just a reminder

Of how black and white things are

There is no inbetween gray

For someone who dislikes the golden harmony

Yet still believes in God

I am not a sinner

In my mind, I believe i am pure

Yet to all I have some terrible disease

To which there is no cure




I am just a fallen angel

But by my choice I did fall

And if I had the choice to change my fate

I'm not sure I could make the call




You may think of me as anatheme

You may shield your child's eyes

You may hope you never become like me

Some might...I wouldn't be suprised

But you would still be the minority

That's the golden and designated truth

For if you went against any teachings

You would be named a traoitor, a heathen; and uncouth




I am still alive, still breathing

This judgment is not so bad

I do not wish to know what the future brings

But for now, despite it all, I am glad

I am free to hide in shadows

For it is requested I remain unseen

I answer to no human,

And I choose what I belive




Some may look at me despairingly

Shaking their heads at the sight

Thinking i'm ignorant and a failure

That I am nothing more than a blight

But I have grown accustomed to the whispers

I no longer shudder at the stares

Yet I would give my life to save someone

If I could...But I cannot...

Because I am not supposed to care




I am evil

I'm a demon

I should be tortured and defiled

I am darkness

I am shadow

Yet I too cringe when someone hurts a child

Think of me how you wish

I can live with your hate

But I am no longer a prisoner

Behind those pearly gates



crying cry cry
WOW
I know......
it's so good.
i almost cried reading it.
it's....
me. though....?