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~Love hurts~!
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I was planning to go on this big choir trip and every thing was going good till his new girl...."the senior" somehow finds her way on the trip! That made me really upset. The entire bus ride there they were all over each other stare so gross! gonk i mean it is a church choir trip *puke* any way it made my heart just sink. i tried my hardest to ignore them but it was kinda hard sweatdrop they were like that the entire week we were on the choir trip. Me and him are still friends and all but any time she was around i was treated like crap, when ever she wasn't around though i was treated like a friend should be! i hate her even before this happen i couldn't stand her! evil twisted evil twisted when we got backs from the choir trip like 3 weeks later he broke up with her and came back to me. Great the drama starts all over! heart crying crying crying keep it away!!!! crying crying

Once again everything was going good, i was happy he was happy! For valentines day he gave me a box of fortune cookies with fortunes of love in them. and 2 kisisng doggies, they were so cute! heart heart 4laugh i didn't really know what to get him so i got him a teddy bear w/ candy. sweatdrop we dated for several months then about the begening of may there was a band trip. The wed. before he left for the trip we were at church for the stregnth team. he was holding me telling me he loved me and that he would miss me. The sunday he got back i called to ask if he was comming to church that night, his voice sounded just like it did before, my stomach became uneasy. i was going to break up with him that night but m friend talked me out of it and said it was probably just my nerves or somthing. The next day at school, one of my friends from the band told me he was cheating on me with one of the girls from the band/ my church. scream scream crying crying i was so upset and mad i actually started to cry, but i wiped the tears from my eyes and we he walked up pretending nothing had happened i just droped his necklace, earings (christmas presents) and his watch in his hand and said goodbye and left. i was trying my hardest not to be upset. cry cry cry I didn't talk to him for about a week, but i didn;t want to ruin our friendship over a realtionship so i started talking to him again. Remember in an earlier story i said i would never stop loving him!? well i guess i didn't lie! i still love him heart . But tell me this how sick is it that a senior would date a freshman sweatdrop how emberassing is that! rofl lol from my point i mean besides the fact that this is her first boyfriend. i mean come on find someone your own age!!!!

At church next wednessday. i am still upset but i am not going to let that ruin my evening we hang out as usuall but no hugs or kisses crying . i left him for about 10 minutes to talk with some of my friends and right before church started this girl with bright red hair showed up walked up to him, kissed him then hung all over him scream i was thinking. I was so upset and p/oed i litterly felt like someone riped out my heart. But i loved heart him and i wanted him to be happy and he looked happy so though i was mad i pretended was perfectly fine. i wasn't mad that we broke up i was made that he lied about why we broke up! I never confronted him about it because... i don't know why i just didn't. Any way about 2 weeks later they broke up. I was happy xd . 3 days befor feb 1 he walked up to me at school with this look in his eye, (he was so cute i found it really hard not to smile back), he said "i'm sorry i realize i love you heart " my heart pounded" will you take me back" i decided i was going to make him suffer for a while after what he put me through! i told him that i couldn't trust him and that i would seriously have to think about it. i made him suffer for 3 days... didn't talk to him, wouldn't answer his calles then finally on feb. 1 took him back. I know i was an idiot but love heart makes you do stupid things sweatdrop . once again i was happy, because i had the one i loved with me! heart


Back in october, i remember it was october 18 i started dating this guy i had known since the begining of the school year. xd He didn't know it but i had like him since the first day i met him! heart . anyway we started dating and became very close. I was happy! On our 1 month anniversery he bought me this beautiful silver watch. I wore it every day. we say each other 6 days a week because we went to the same school and same church, i thought i had it made. biggrin One wed. night he pulled me aside just me & him and he told me somthing he never told any *one so he said* he thought it might make me not like him any more so he was really upset and it was hard for him to tell me. But in reality what he told me made love heart him even more because he trusted me with it. i comforted him and told him i would love him no matter what because i knew i would. Christmas break finally came and we didn't see each other for 2 weeks crying because i had gone out of town. He called me every day for about 4 days then he didn't call at all. When i came back it was january first, start of a new year. you would think it would start out great, i mean getting to see my boyfriend again but no. he hardly spoke to me that day.... he sat by me but something was different i could tell. i remember thinking to my self aww man this is it we're breaking up. i felt my stomach knot. After church he called me to the side in this voice that i never heard before. he told me he just wasn't ready for a realtionship right now. As much as that hurt i accepted it because i was in love heart , so i saccraficed my feeling for his. I just wanted him to be happy no matter what, wether it included me or not. cry


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