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So I feel a little bit better than yesterday I suppose, I don't have school tomorrow which is F to the ANTASTIC. I can't help but feel sad though ._.; Cause' I really..really like someone, they like me, but they have a girlfriend, they don't like their girlfriend but....OI! Why do I mix myself up with this?

I hate this silly little game that goes on with my heart, I hate that so much. It swells and swells and I just want to force it away from me, No I don't think its cold but I seem pathetic lingering around something that might NEVER happen.

It probably won't, but time will tell I guess.

Im just a little sick of relationships in general.

...But even though Im sick of all of this....I want it, I want it and my heart jumps when I speak to them, my thoughts fly when they're around, we could laugh about the stupid stuff that no one would laugh at and think we're druggies for laughing at it in the first place.....and just.....

I.love.Aki.

Maybe thats why Im sick...I love Aki....and Maybe Aki doesn't get that, Im the one who'd protect and not stab....Aki deserves someone to care.


Words to Aki: The World may be against us, but its us against the world. Together.


......Mn

- Aoshi

I thought last night would be the night ._. Guess I was wrong. sweatdrop My stomach was squirming and everything, I was WAITING, just...WAITING. I got nothing. How long do I have to wait to hear those 6 words.....that would be like the greatest music to my ears. Can I wait longer? Can I? ...I know I can, for them..... I could wait a thousand years over.

I don't care about my past friends, I don't care. I've grown to see that I don't need them to be happy, I don't need them at all. I'll take those few with me ( Aki, Lee, Sou ect.) but the rest of them I don't need. They're like the circle of distruction, the circle of mayhem, singing a devils song in my ear. I use to listen to that devil song, I use to sing to it too. Now, I shut my ears and realize how I withered from that tune, withered away because of their misunfortunate events, because of their sinful deeds, because of the people they are and lie themselves out to make them feel worthy and precious to me.


They aren't precious, they aren't worthy of anything, nothing at all. I don't understand how people could be naive, false, untrue, liars...corrupt. I have a new song in mind, more or so a melody. Its a whispering song, a gentle tune I could hum to.

One person sings it for me, and its like I could see the innocent things, the light around them. I'll keep listening to that tune, I just pray it won't fade away, and if it does? I'll lock it in my memory, and keep it close to me.


...If only they knew, If only they knew.


- Aoshi

xD So it seems myspace Roleplay owns my soul now. smile It makes it go round~ Also, poptarts...I love poptarts! as much as I love bagels ( which I haven't had since I left NY back in January and My mouth waters for their bagely-ness so~!) heart


Anyhow, yes, Myspace rp. biggrin !
As much of a b***h Myspace can be ( which it is about....99% of the time~) Myspace Roleplay is fun!.... and Aoshi is S.T.U.P.A.D!!! >.< she bought a white top hat instead of a black one to match the outfit and @____@ she's poor so she has to find some way to raise 1k xD ( OH WOW OH LA LA~) Jesus xD Bai bai yall'

- Aoshi

Bleh so Im hooked on Utada Hikaru's Kairo ne? I can even remember word from word.

" fune ga isseki, kuroi nami wo utsu~" Ect and so forth.

Im getting sick of my mother on my back, she complains about everything now a days. I guess its because of her age. She turned 42 yesterday, OH THE TERRIBLE TWOS. She doesn't want me on the phone, watching TV or anything, I don't even GO on the phone a lot and when I do its with Aki-chan and no one else. I don't see why she has her cooch all caught up in a knot excuse my lingo.

Myspace Roleplay owns my soul too, Im Yumehito and Sou and its fantasmic. I love playing on there, its awesome. I just feel bad for the unfortunate souls who think the roleplayers are actually the real people EVEN IF THEY SEE MILLIONS OF CLONES AROUND.

Lawl. Halerious. neutral This journal entry is pointless and so rantable.


Another thing I find funny, Dani liking Ebilness and Ruka, I think thats side holding worth. neutral She's such a confused child and can't make up her mind. XD I don't care really, biggrin I like somone already!!

I'll just sit back and be amused ne.


- Aoshi

Redid my journal, I didn't like the other entries because
A) They were Emo
B) They had something to do with Ruka--koibito
C) .......Ew
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Anyway, Today is halloween, happy halloween! I came to school today dressed as hello kitty mad hatter style, people stared. Oh well, its spirit week and today is cartoon day. biggrin ?

I want to go home and speak to Aki-chan~ <3 Aki-chan is my bestfriend, a new person in my life well...since a couple of months ago. I adore Aki to shreds and I write it all down here.

I haven't been on Gaia in a good while, so im tryin to get the hang of the new look to it sweatdrop I fail so bad. You all love me ne? OF COURSE YOU DO. Im Aoshi. n_n;

See you later Super Shooters~


- Aoshi