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Around mid day yesterday I made a very hard decision; to leave my second home, Lady Phacia's grounds. I simply retrieved my things, left a note and said goodbye to no one. For me, goodbye's always turn out to be more emotional than originally planned. I do plan on returning though...someday...but for now, the demons of which I spoke of in my note much be exterminated. I know they have something to do with, him, but there's no certainty in my suspicions as of yet. I just have a really strong feeling that it's the same man who tricked me over a century ago...The same snake of a man who guaranteed my death by these mortals. If it wasn't for sister I would've been dead...but I'm not one to dwell on the past too much. Somehow though, it likes to dwell on me.

I leave the grounds because I prefer not to include others in my solutions to my own problems. I...I know that they're family but, they've already been through enough. Even now, some of them are still wrestling with their own pasts. Why should I add more fuel to the fire? I'm not that kind of person. I'll take care of this myself. It maybe selfish of me but that's how I handle things...Alone...I've always been alone anyway. That's how I'll end up I suppose...alone. Heh, don't get me wrong though. I find it comforting, I always have.

So, I leave them inorder to protect them...and that's all I have to say.

((Ok, here's the deal. School's coming up and I'm not talking about high school, I'm talking about college. I REALLY ******** up my senior year in high school so I really wanna kick a** this year. Also, I started another account. One where I can be more, truthfull in my discussions. More of a blog account, this one's just for role-playing. Another reason I was gone so long is, in my opinion, my role-playing really sucked at the time when everyone was there. Seems like I was just there for relief. Everyone else was serious and getting into deep storylines and things like that. That's ok, but it's kind of hard to play out a storyline on the solo. Vash is a good example. His story was great, but he role-played alone, so he was doing double or even triple the work. I have a story to tell for ms Li Aouxuan, but the only way I'd role-play it is if I had some assistance. Phacia's a good example to. We tried to start another forum where she could finally lay her past to rest but that fell through too. Oh well. I'll go back if the place is still up and running and as I mentioned, I will be watching. I love to lurk and be sneaky. Maybe I'd come back more often if this site had more to do in the battle aspect. Role-playing is one thing, actual battle is certain though. So until they develop a battle system, I'm gone on this account. See ya later! 3nodding ))