i sit and i study and i do my work in the confinements of my bedroom. its not as harsh as i once believed. my radio's on, the suns shining through my window, and my dog Ashlee sleeps peacefullly on my bed. i complete another problem and i look at the paper. teardrops fall from my face onto it. "you'll always be in this predicament, ya know." that retched voice tells me. "all your friends, hanging out at the high school, and at the mall. while you sit here, biding, alone, and helpless. theres no future for you." i try to block it out, believing that things can and will change. "you believe you'll get a better start this way. your ears are covered, but your still crying." "Shut up!" i cry, even though i know its no use. that voice will never stop, as long as im here. Ashlee lifts her head, and looks at me. i wipe my eyes and smile, getting up from my desk. i go over to my bed and pet her, thankful for a friend. she licks my hand. i give her once last pet and i go back to my desk. i pick up my pencil, and my cell vibrates across the desk. i drop the pencil, and grab my phone. one new message, it says. i click OPEN, and this is what it said. "I Wish You Would Come Back To School With Us. We Miss You." i reply saying "I Will." that voice creeps up again. "liar. you dont know what you're going to do." i sigh, and place my cell back in its place. i drift and daydream shortly afterwards. watashi no ai appears before me, but i cant seem to reach him. a loud noise jerks me back to the present. my cell had fallen off my desk, onto a binder. i quikly pick it up, and look at it. it reads "I Sure Hope So." this time, i closed the message, and put my phone on my paper. then i start crying out loud, my shoulders shaking. "i told you this would happen. it always does." i slowly stop shaking, stop sobbing, and i wipe my eyes. "I need to get out of here..." i think to myself as i pick up my pencil, and begin the rest of my work.
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