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I've really never made a journal before besides my old account for deviantART. sweatdrop So...I guess i dont know much to say.

I'm kind of a problem child. I take everyone's problems and frustrations and put them upon myself and try to help them before myself. It also gives me a nosey, sort of personality.

I love helping people, even though most dont want help. It makes me rather sad when alot of people dont come to me for advice. It makes me wonder what my purpose is in their lives if I cant even help them.

I'm very misanthropic. I hate people, to tell you the truth. People scare me-I scare me...

I'm very timid even though I seem hyper. Theres only a few people I'll let touch me. No one can hardly get past the outter barrier of my soul. Only a few people are allowed:

LiZa
Fuujin
Nicolae
Kira

No one else seems to understand. They all want to but they never seem to give it the time.

There are reasons I'm afraid of people. All of my friends know about but I don't really like talking about it. I'm very touchy about it so don't ask.

I'm afraid of death and yet I think about not living...It's a weird situation but it happens.

I'm starting to get depression. It doesnt hurt, but no one seems to notice. And if they do, sorry; i didnt know. ^^;

But I guess thats it. There are happy sides to me too. Lemme explain those before i go ^^:

Love is most important. I fall in love so easily! lol but the one person I'll never really be able to let go is Nicolae. I'm going to always love and miss him. He was the first person I've ever fell for.

Music is another thing. My parents want me to sing but I can't do it! I hate singing. Well, i love it, but I'm not going to do it for a career. It's at habit in which I sing. I'm horrible at it anyway ^^

Art is next on my list. Drawing is my passion! I've done it since I could pick up a pencil. I drew Barbie clothes and princesses, and my parents thought It was rather odd. They dont think I can make it with my art...It makes me wanna cry and run away so then they'll see

My friends have to be the most important. I love them all so much. I'd die without them. I never had many growing up and when i finally found a group that loved me for who i was, not how i acted. They mean the world to me and I'm very calm around them, trying not to make them angry with me.

My family...well they're okay.

I guess thats it for now. I'm not going to force anyone to read these but if they want to, It'd be cool ^^

~Yuki heart