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Ive looked over what I thought to be a normal happy family well everything in my granparents house is just that a happy go lucky family always smiling but outside my happy bubble of living with my grandparents not so much. My mom left deserted me and my sister just like that I was 4 and she was 2 she called I visted her a few times but i despised that women she left me. I mean her and my dad had agreed to split of and all but that didnt mean she could book it out of my life but to her thats exactly what it meant. So when she came back into my life after all the tears of being a little kid and being picked on were over, she had the nerve to act like my best friend that we were close but when she tried to turn me agaist my daddy the one parent who stayed in my life that was it I pushed out of my life that was also when she left for the secound time. she calls often my sister will talk to her but i wont even go near the phone. I lock myself on the room. My heart twords that women who gave to birth to me is like frost bite. My friends dislike her as much as I do. they saw how depressed and upset I got when she came back and it worried them they said that i wasnt even smiling when i was usually giggling, laughing or smiling till my face was numb. They saw the pain she caused and she couldnt even see that much. My family inside the apsolutely countrified place i call home of mine is happy warm and safe but as Ive said outside that its such a differant story my dad dates now frequently he leaves me spinning sometimes with all the girlfriends but you get use to it and somtimes you can really like them but6 most of the time there really strange or distant. Although i hope somday i can call one mom with a happy tone to it.
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