'Isn't it funny, how one person, this one person, you can never get them off your mind, you'd do anything for them, you know you love them, because everything you do reminds you of them.' One of my best friends once told me how she loved a boy so much that she cried over him nonstop for 3 days straight. She said she felt sick, not being able to see him, knowing that they weren't together anymore, and she couldn't just run up to him and smile, kissing him and telling him she loved me. He told her nothing would change, it did. He told her he'd come back to her, and she waited. And as she waited, she began to worry. She was miserable without him.. not being able to see his face.. not being able to light up her own. I know she loves him. She loves him so much, she's sick and miserable without him. I know how she feels. See, there's a boy out there.. one that I can't stand being without. But I've done it, for over a month now. I hate the feeling, the feeling that no one knows. The feeling of hurt and guilt, and the worst part is hiding it, not being able to confess it. Until one day, I broke down. I couldn't take it anymore. I thought of him, and couldn't stop myself from crying. I've gone this far without thinking of him, so why does that have to end now? And I'm sitting here asking that question even though I already know the answer. It's because I love him. I can't deny it. And it's all my fault that any of this is even happening. It's something I can't just change. I don't know how to make it right. All I know is what I feel.. and I feel like s**t :/
Feye Marie · Fri Apr 23, 2010 @ 03:49am · 0 Comments |