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Some antisexuals believe sexuality to be the cause of many of the world's problems. Antisexuals can also be opposed to the idea of romantic love,
with some describing it as an "addiction to a person". (wikipedia)
i find this sentence to have have become more or less the basis of my life.i wish more than anything to be alone.i wish not to find love.i wish not for companionship,i only want the comradry of dear friends that suround me and shower me with familial love.Even if it may be from the oppisite gender.i only hope for a future with myself,liveing my life free of hiderances.
i find that liveing a life of give and take,acceptance and romance,are all very annatractive duties.these thoughts could almost be thought of something simalar to the mind of light sociopathacy.but alas,if that is the case,then the case it will be.but let us not forget the most important thing about me.i am a human.
Similar to celebacy, antisexuals choose not to have sex. They may still have a sex drive, but they ignore it. They can still have healthy, romantic relationships. (urban dictionary)
i myself wouldnt mind if the right person came along and tried to sweep me off my feet.i would actually be quite flattered.im human after all.but this dose not change my veiws.they would most likey be rejected relatively quickly.and if not,and i for some reason were to feel the same requited emotions,the interactions would go no further than a perhaps,holding the other persons hand.after all im quite a coy person.
it is inevitable to feel this way.no matter what i do,i will always have the human nature in me to feel atraction for others.this is not something one can simply erase from their system.but its not something that cant be repressed either.i fully understand that many opse the represion of an activity so human but these humans are not me.i find no apeal,no attraction,no compeling reson to partake in such a life syle.
Male dominated families can be harmful entity for society, which is similar to the theory of Marx and Engels that male dominated family structures
which reduce females to objects of reproduction and household chores are more a form of 'prostitution' than one of ethical family values. (wikipedia)
i have never once seen a family and thought."wow what a wonderful thing i would be to have my own."i look at such thinga and imagine much darker things.i constanly think:"oh?so its my fate to become a worn down old woman spending 18 years with constant late night,awkward conversateions,money spent on toys and food,and to become the neglected woman who waits for her lover to come home from work."i find that this theroy may have become the basis for society,and it pains me to think of such a life,chained to people whom depend on me.i as a female are given the curse of children.a process in which many have been cut,torn,and in such agony that it is constantly claimed to be a feeling no man could ever know.
to worsen this situateion i am currently a teen.it has become expected that all a person of my age desires is freedom and love.something that i find simply infuryateing is the suspicion that a female of my age will only grow close to the male that they are intrested in for,and to be blunt about it,sex.just the sher thought of knowing that this is on the mind of others makes the very core of my being writhe in agonizeing shame.just thinking of someone veiwing me so degradeingly.it makes me sick,if the world had no rules id punch the people thinking such disgusting things of me as a female.but i have class,something those people think i dont have.
someone who is neither straight, gay, or bi. they have no sexuality whatsoever and shun relationships. usually caused by excessive rejection and heartbreak. (urban dictionary.)
although heartbreak has never been a problem for me theres on telling what the future holds.i however do know that i most likely will not be searching for anyone anytime soon.and even if i was,its most certianly not for romance.so whatever happens may happen.
my last topic has no definiton.i will merely speak of a topic called aceptance. (alexis ward.)
i have many times stressed my preference to friends and family.id very much like to thank my open minded father for his wide range of understanding of my situateion.its not an easy thing to convice people of after all.but just because he so easily belived dosent mean that everyone can understand as easily as him.there are times i cry to myself for hours.hopeing for the support from others but find that they only laugh at my calls for aceptance.i have one male firend whom i have such a close relateionship with.he is my best friend(at times) and i just wish that others could understand how hurt i felt.mabye you reading this have felt the way i do.have you ever seen a homosexual being picked on,people call them things like f*****t,gay,and other offensive terms.when i hear any metions of such intamate relateionships i feel just as hurt as the oter person i described,but no one cares.as long as my friend remain a male i wont ever be free from all this suffering.people will just laugh and walk over my feelings.
so after reading this what do you see in me.do you still see a human whos naturally atracted to anything that moves,or do you see a girl whos got her mind set on better and less over ratted affairs.