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I don't know why, but...
I don't know why, but...
MAEKA
Let's start with the basics first so you get to know me a little before you run away.
BASICS - WHAT A START
Name// My name is-- HAHAHA. Like I'd REALLY tell you what it is. >>
If you know it, good for you. =3 I must really like you if I trust you with it.
... Especially if you know my first name. If you know that, I must really ******** love you. You better feel special, damnit. FEEL THE LOVE!!!
You May Refer To Me As // Mae, Maeka
Age// Now this, I don't mind telling you. I'm currently SIXTEEN, going on to be SEVENTEEN in September, the twenty-eighth day of said month. Yes, yes, I do realize Gaia says my birthday is December 12th. But there's a funny story behind that. Pay no mind.
I'm a JUNIOR in high school right now. I'm not that smart. Heh. Ya. Whatever. Not like you really need to know that.
Nationality // Filipina; FULL BLOWN. Asian pride. Go Phillipines.
I Live// In the world somewhere. Grand, isn't it? I know. You wish you knew where I lived. But you don't. So too bad.
... And if you do... Well then good for you once more. I must REALLY trust you. You better feel the love.
... Either that, or you know me in real life.
I Believe// I live as a Catholic, I guess. I would very much like to convert, but I believe in God and all that. I just don't like the expectations. Lazy reason, huh? I believe in all sorts of things: The supernatural, fate, karma... A lot. Let's leave it at that, okay? As for Creation versus Evolution, I believe more in Evolution. It's got evidence.
Learn to love me. Heheh. Or not. Whatever you choose. . .~
Okay. I meant it when I said I was gonna throw my faults at you, so here we go. Ya. Sudden.
I AM...
- Split In Three: I'll say it now. There's three parts to me. The first part is the part that you talk to everyday; you know, happy Mae, that one Mae who wants to see you smile and makes stupid jokes and can be quite stubborn. The one that mentions that she doesn't like others seeing her sad and doesn't like it when other people care about her too much. Then there's the part of me that I don't let anyone see. The part that truely does want people to care, the part that really wants someone to be sad, the part that carries all my burdens. Then there's that one part of me that I don't listen to. You can call her the angel on my shoulder. If you're going to really want to know me, just make sure that you keep in mind that in MY mind, I'm constantly contradicting myself. Anything I say is always going to be a lie to the other half of me. I'm complex like that.
- An Emotional Sponge: I carry the burdens of those around me. I give advice, and I hate seeing others sad. I tend to let other people's feelings, along with my own, build up in me to the point where I start thinking suicidally, as I often do.
- Paranoid: I tend not to believe what anyone tells me. I believe everyone is against me, and that everyone hates me. The only people that I don't believe this about are the ones I care very much for.
- Mistrusting: I... have a tendency not to trust people. Even if I seem like I do, there's probably a part of me that doesn't.
- Lazy: Go ahead. Ask me to do you a favor. If it's something I don't feel like doing, there's always a chance I won't do it.
- Obsessive: When I want something, I want it. If I own something, I'll make it known that it's mine. When someone is my friend, I want them to stay my friend. If I don't hear from you for even five minutes, I panic and get scared. Why? I don't know. You might already want to just stop talking for five minutes without notice to see if I'll freak out about you. But this only applies to the people in the "My Lovers" section. The people that I want to stay a part of my life for a long time.
- Somewhat Submissive: I cave to suggestions quite easily. I just want to see someone smile so much, it's easy to talk me into things if I think to myself that I'm not taking too much damage in exchange.
- A Former Masochist: Yes. I did hurt myself a lot and meant to. I didn't want people to care, but at the same time, I wanted someone to care so much that they would do anything to make me stop.
- Formerly Suicidal: I've attempted suicide a couple times, and it still crosses my mind. Do NOT joke with me about suicide unless I joke first. If you seem like you really mean it and I care about you, you could end up sending me into a depression. And if you love me you won't do that. :<
- A Sadist: There will always be times when I will say cruel words and not care who I hurt. But it's not too often.
- Multi-Personalitied: I tend to act differently depending on my situation. Or the people I'm around.
- A Mirror: I'll act how others want me to act just to see them happy. But will you really take a chance to see how I really am?
- Insane: Self explanitory. Still care to know me? I think not.
- Someone Who Tend To Feel Guilty A Lot: After I've had the chance to feel really really happy for any reason, I tend to feel guilty for being so because there's someone else out there who deserves to be happy. You're in a bad mood? I feel guilty because I KNOW there's something I've done that's added to your mood. Two friends fighting? Most definitely my fault.
Other Random Crap:
I classify myself as somewhat self-centered and low self-esteemed.
I absolutely hate myself and people who are like me.
I'm a hypocrite.
I hate hypocrites.
Sure, I donate to my friends, but I have a reasoning behind that that I believe is quite selfish.
I hate myself. :3
Oh. Hey. You actually read that? I'm amazed.
So here's a list of people that I love. :3
MY LOVERS - THE PEOPLE THAT MEAN THE WORLD TO ME
If you're here, you must have truely done something to influence my life. And though the requirements for that aren't exactly too high, I'm still limiting who's here. Don't take it too hard. I still love you.
If you're weird and don't want people knowing how we met and how much I love you, then just tell me to take off your part of this or a part of your part of this. Tee-hee. But know that I put a lot of
thought into these and I mean every word I say. Type. Whatever!!!
MateriaHunterKair - I'm gonna start out with this: I. Owe. Her. My. Life. Now that you know that, I'm ready to tell you about this magnificent angel of mine.
Kair is my cousin. She's been in my life so long, I don't think I could live without her. We've been together since the young'un days. We had our share of fights back then, and now I tend to just believe anything she tells me. I've always thought that I could never live up to her, and I've thought to myself that there was no way I could ever be good enough, but I know she loves me all the same, as I love her. She can put up with me better than anyone, she always is there to give me advice, she's always there to talk to... This list of mine is just so long. She's pretty much saved my life. There's so much to write, I don't think I could put it all, so I'll end it here with the statement that "I LOVE YOU SO DAMNED MUCH".
P.S. :3. . . Is your Grunny still scared of lag?
L-Hatsune Miku-I - Mah Lawly-chan. X3 Just a close friend I met not too long ago. Sure, it hasn't been too long, but you're already really close to me!~ Like a little sister. Or daughter. <3 But ya know. I'm only one year older than you. X3;;;
Still, you seem to know a lot more about... things... than I do. I guess you have a lot to teach me. ^^ You're a really close friend to me. :3
P.S. Momma wants more sake. >8U
Let's start with the basics first so you get to know me a little before you run away.
BASICS - WHAT A START
Name// My name is-- HAHAHA. Like I'd REALLY tell you what it is. >>
If you know it, good for you. =3 I must really like you if I trust you with it.
... Especially if you know my first name. If you know that, I must really ******** love you. You better feel special, damnit. FEEL THE LOVE!!!
You May Refer To Me As // Mae, Maeka
Age// Now this, I don't mind telling you. I'm currently SIXTEEN, going on to be SEVENTEEN in September, the twenty-eighth day of said month. Yes, yes, I do realize Gaia says my birthday is December 12th. But there's a funny story behind that. Pay no mind.
I'm a JUNIOR in high school right now. I'm not that smart. Heh. Ya. Whatever. Not like you really need to know that.
Nationality // Filipina; FULL BLOWN. Asian pride. Go Phillipines.
I Live// In the world somewhere. Grand, isn't it? I know. You wish you knew where I lived. But you don't. So too bad.
... And if you do... Well then good for you once more. I must REALLY trust you. You better feel the love.
... Either that, or you know me in real life.
I Believe// I live as a Catholic, I guess. I would very much like to convert, but I believe in God and all that. I just don't like the expectations. Lazy reason, huh? I believe in all sorts of things: The supernatural, fate, karma... A lot. Let's leave it at that, okay? As for Creation versus Evolution, I believe more in Evolution. It's got evidence.
Learn to love me. Heheh. Or not. Whatever you choose. . .~
Okay. I meant it when I said I was gonna throw my faults at you, so here we go. Ya. Sudden.
I AM...
- Split In Three: I'll say it now. There's three parts to me. The first part is the part that you talk to everyday; you know, happy Mae, that one Mae who wants to see you smile and makes stupid jokes and can be quite stubborn. The one that mentions that she doesn't like others seeing her sad and doesn't like it when other people care about her too much. Then there's the part of me that I don't let anyone see. The part that truely does want people to care, the part that really wants someone to be sad, the part that carries all my burdens. Then there's that one part of me that I don't listen to. You can call her the angel on my shoulder. If you're going to really want to know me, just make sure that you keep in mind that in MY mind, I'm constantly contradicting myself. Anything I say is always going to be a lie to the other half of me. I'm complex like that.
- An Emotional Sponge: I carry the burdens of those around me. I give advice, and I hate seeing others sad. I tend to let other people's feelings, along with my own, build up in me to the point where I start thinking suicidally, as I often do.
- Paranoid: I tend not to believe what anyone tells me. I believe everyone is against me, and that everyone hates me. The only people that I don't believe this about are the ones I care very much for.
- Mistrusting: I... have a tendency not to trust people. Even if I seem like I do, there's probably a part of me that doesn't.
- Lazy: Go ahead. Ask me to do you a favor. If it's something I don't feel like doing, there's always a chance I won't do it.
- Obsessive: When I want something, I want it. If I own something, I'll make it known that it's mine. When someone is my friend, I want them to stay my friend. If I don't hear from you for even five minutes, I panic and get scared. Why? I don't know. You might already want to just stop talking for five minutes without notice to see if I'll freak out about you. But this only applies to the people in the "My Lovers" section. The people that I want to stay a part of my life for a long time.
- Somewhat Submissive: I cave to suggestions quite easily. I just want to see someone smile so much, it's easy to talk me into things if I think to myself that I'm not taking too much damage in exchange.
- A Former Masochist: Yes. I did hurt myself a lot and meant to. I didn't want people to care, but at the same time, I wanted someone to care so much that they would do anything to make me stop.
- Formerly Suicidal: I've attempted suicide a couple times, and it still crosses my mind. Do NOT joke with me about suicide unless I joke first. If you seem like you really mean it and I care about you, you could end up sending me into a depression. And if you love me you won't do that. :<
- A Sadist: There will always be times when I will say cruel words and not care who I hurt. But it's not too often.
- Multi-Personalitied: I tend to act differently depending on my situation. Or the people I'm around.
- A Mirror: I'll act how others want me to act just to see them happy. But will you really take a chance to see how I really am?
- Insane: Self explanitory. Still care to know me? I think not.
- Someone Who Tend To Feel Guilty A Lot: After I've had the chance to feel really really happy for any reason, I tend to feel guilty for being so because there's someone else out there who deserves to be happy. You're in a bad mood? I feel guilty because I KNOW there's something I've done that's added to your mood. Two friends fighting? Most definitely my fault.
Other Random Crap:
I classify myself as somewhat self-centered and low self-esteemed.
I absolutely hate myself and people who are like me.
I'm a hypocrite.
I hate hypocrites.
Sure, I donate to my friends, but I have a reasoning behind that that I believe is quite selfish.
I hate myself. :3
Oh. Hey. You actually read that? I'm amazed.
So here's a list of people that I love. :3
MY LOVERS - THE PEOPLE THAT MEAN THE WORLD TO ME
If you're here, you must have truely done something to influence my life. And though the requirements for that aren't exactly too high, I'm still limiting who's here. Don't take it too hard. I still love you.
If you're weird and don't want people knowing how we met and how much I love you, then just tell me to take off your part of this or a part of your part of this. Tee-hee. But know that I put a lot of
thought into these and I mean every word I say. Type. Whatever!!!
MateriaHunterKair - I'm gonna start out with this: I. Owe. Her. My. Life. Now that you know that, I'm ready to tell you about this magnificent angel of mine.
Kair is my cousin. She's been in my life so long, I don't think I could live without her. We've been together since the young'un days. We had our share of fights back then, and now I tend to just believe anything she tells me. I've always thought that I could never live up to her, and I've thought to myself that there was no way I could ever be good enough, but I know she loves me all the same, as I love her. She can put up with me better than anyone, she always is there to give me advice, she's always there to talk to... This list of mine is just so long. She's pretty much saved my life. There's so much to write, I don't think I could put it all, so I'll end it here with the statement that "I LOVE YOU SO DAMNED MUCH".
P.S. :3. . . Is your Grunny still scared of lag?
L-Hatsune Miku-I - Mah Lawly-chan. X3 Just a close friend I met not too long ago. Sure, it hasn't been too long, but you're already really close to me!~ Like a little sister. Or daughter. <3 But ya know. I'm only one year older than you. X3;;;
Still, you seem to know a lot more about... things... than I do. I guess you have a lot to teach me. ^^ You're a really close friend to me. :3
P.S. Momma wants more sake. >8U
ɱy ɧeart ℓongs ƒor you
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