I'm not meant for anyone.
Any attempts at venting my pent up aggression is thrown back in my face and I'm called childish and immature. Why can't I just do what I need to do it let it out? I'm still scarred from losing so many people. Why can't I find someone who will stay and let me lean on them? In the end, I'm always too 'clingy' or 'too emotional' or 'too ******** up' to stay with in any way. I can't be me with anyone at all. I can't ask for help from anyone. I'll be ignored for... for forever... I guess... Having no one to hug me when I need it, a hug from someone who has crossed into my inner most circle of trust, that hurts so much. It makes me feel so alone. I feel empty; cold. Now I don't have anyone like that at all. And I can only handle one person like that at a time because... well... if more than one shows up then my standard has lowered; I would be letting in bad people who don't deserve it. But why can't they stay with me longer than just a few months?? What's wrong with me? What drives them away?!
 Ai Kyuketsuki · Tue Nov 05, 2013 @ 03:24am · 0 Comments |
