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I have always...admired Neji-kun.

Even though he was cruel to me, and mean, and rude, there was always a strength in him that I admired. He believed so strongly in his way and in himself, something that I could never do. The blood flowed thick in his veins, the power it granted made him powerful. More powerful than I could ever be.

I was always so uncertain, shy, and weak. I was like a blade of grass, blowing every which way with the wind, caught up in its tide. Stepped on, trampled on, ignored and unimportant, that was what I always was.

Maybe I had the power to stand up, maybe I had the strength to believe. Maybe that I was too weak to believe in uncertain maybes. So in the end I ended up doing nothing, always nothing.

Instead, I took to watching others grow around me, beautiful buds that bloomed into maturity and took other people's breath away while I was too scared to grow myself.

Someone once told me I was a bud, a bud with potential, but too scared to give birth to this unknown flower inside of me.

And maybe they are telling the truth. I was scared, am scared, to bloom into diversity only to find others look at me in distain, and become the only weed in this beautiful garden of flowers.

I'm weak and I can't find the strength in me to believe in myself, to believe that I'll turn into a beautiful flower like those around me. I'm scared and unsure that I'll be plucked from my patch of soil and thrown aside, and never to be seen again.

I want to exist. If not noticed, I want to at least exist. I don't need others to acknowledge me; I need me to acknowledge myself. This small shy timid girl who is scared to be wiped out from her very existence if she ever brought notice upon herself.

I can't be sure of myself, with this blood running so thinly in my veins I can't be powerful.

Not like you Neji-kun.

The blood flows thick in your veins. You believe. You're powerful.

Can you teach me how