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Oh wow, I am so like amazingly bored right now I can't freakin believe it ... devon isn't online, oh mi gosh i can't believes!! i wish he was, oh how i like talking to Devon... it's been over an hour since i was online, i haven't done a thing... fishing wont work for me and I'm being driven insane... I feel like major crap right now... very very lonely and very very boreds... i ate so much buttery popcorn ... and chocolate chip cookies... but teh salty popcorn isn't good for me... especially not at this time of month where mah monthly "friend" may come at anytime like some kinda freakin ninja or something... *shudders* Gosh, I really want to disect a bishie right now!! I used to do that a lot... it's probably been over a year since last I've done so... but i miss all the fun i used to have... haha, bondage. Bondage is FUNNY. *laughs* ok... I'm pretty really bored right now and craving coke, my love of all loves... i don't care about no freakin energy drinks i want mah coke cus it's GEWD... DAMN GEWDS!! teh grrness... I didn't really see Devon all day which sucks majorly... i like seeing devon. haha! x000 ohhh crap i feel sooo down... I wish I was hyper. I like being high/drunk/hyper. Oh! :'0 I'm majorly saddens by right now XD im not making much sense... hehe... oh wells!! *vomits* ugh... yeah, i like vomiting sometimes... especially when I'm THIS FECKING BORED!!! ugh! oooohh! a tomattooooo! a tomatoooo! a potatoooo? noooo a tomatoooo *squee* ... ... ... ... hm... what if i died right now? that'd be like, so wierd... xDD what if mah belly exploded?! that'd be painful.... O_O what if i was raped... that'd be scary... XDDD ok!!! *runs off to go explode* ... ... ... *comes back* didn't work... UGGHHH!! WHY IS DEVON OFFLINE?! I HATE IT WHEN DEVON IS OFFLINE!! I'M GOING TO BRING A FREAKIN GUN TO MAH HEAD AND BLOW MAH BRAINS OUT OF MAH FECKIN SKULL, IM SO BORED!!! x333 now... i want pie... no, not pie... i want to sleep... and to lay down and feel whorish... yeah, i feel like some whore with an addiction to alcohol... or perhaps something much more vulgar... eep! my lip hurts!!! today was a slow day... not as good as others because i hardly saw/hugged Devon.. yesh, seeing Devon makes mah day a helluva lot betters... NOW WHAT THE HELL DO I FREAKIN DO?!?! Gosh, addictions can really kill you when you don't have enough of the substance... ugh *gets a headache* Now why do the cobwebs haunt me so... *sniffles* I wish I had eaten a doughboy yesterday... I wish I wasn't so lazy and could function properly right now... GREEN MARKERS ROCK MY c**k!!! x333 tee hee~!!! oh yeah! teh Gay Wizard Guy!! Meh, I'm too lazy to get started on teh comic of him... I'm even too lazy to go upstairs right now and get mah drawing stuffs... I'm too lazy to even get off teh computer... or step a single step away from it... I'm tired. I'm tired of being tired. I'm bored. I'm bored of being bored. I don't want to be!! Hm... hehehe... Devon smells good... he smells like cigarettes and strawberries... mixed together in a scent that'll leave you feeling drugged and happy. I wish I could smell that scent right now... I'll name it "The Devon Smell". It's really quite addictive, too. <333 i likes!! heart heart crying I feel lonely and bored... yeah... this journal is going to be filled with crap... *Sighs heavilly* Why isn't anyone really online? Why am I so damn lazy? GOSH DARNNIT MOTHER ******** HOLY FREAKIN s**t!! GAY a** ******** HEAD ZOMFG!!! UGH I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!!! *floats* :33 i like bubbles~~ specially when they look all rainbow-y!! *squeals* And bunnies! and pandas!! and kitties!! heart heart I can't believe Devon ish a cat hater!! Kitties are ADORABLE AND CUDDLY AND OH SO FLUFFY!!! *sniffles* it's criminal... Why isn't Devon online... meanie head... this is torture... I can't stand not talking to/seeing/being with Devon.... meh, dunno where teh phone is either... *sighs again* I'm really losing my soul here... with all this sighing... oh mah gooooosherx! Zeek Zion! I feel sick now... really sick... and tired... wait, i already felt tired before i think.... oh daaaaamn!! It looks like Africa outside... or what i think Africa looks like... I'd be freakin screaming with joy if a unicorn walked up to mah house... oh wait, unicorns don't live in Africa... yeah, they live in Hawaii... well, it'd be cewl if one was here nayway... *dreams* :333 hee hee hee hee... WAAAAHHHH!!! *sobs heavilly* I just hate being alone and bored like this!! it's terrible!! I wish someone, anyone, I knew was online right now and talking to meh!! Hm... i remember how sadistic i used to be... eheh... and how i was into S&M... obsessively... but now... I'm feeling pretty asexual :333~!! heart I dunno... perhaps I'm bipolar... or just moody... I don't feel like thinking naymore... I don't feel like seeing naymore... I don't feel like doing anything but saying something or having fun... and I'm only doing one of those things at teh moment... gosh... Why is life so cruel to me right now??? *sighs into hands* It's 4:40... or something... I feel like getting off the computer really badly... but i want to wait... incase Devon may come in... oh, how I really want him to go online... but he probably won't... *sighs* i really wish that i saw him more today... oh yay! it's a halfday tomorrow, if i live till then... i can't wait... or maybe i can... But yeah, i'll be able to wait outside more than usual.... because mah bus doesn't come until laterz on a half day... i'll be with devon a lil bit more~~~ heart Oh, how i just want to drive a sharp object into people's heads... or get a shotgun and deal out some headshots... hehe~~ i have really gewd aim in first person shooter video games... *giggles* Why oh Why isn't Devon online yet... perhaps I shouldn't wait for him to sign on... perhaps i should just fall asleep and not wake up until tomorrow morning when i have to go to school... oh, but i'll have to wake up later for dinner... going to sleep at this time gives me a terrible taste in mah mouth anyway... and then i REALLY feel like killing myself... hm... I'm not emo, though... I'm just terrible lazy and sometimes I could care less about things... Though I care about Devon very very much~ heart Hm... I don't believe that i fit into any stereotype... well, perhaps "Happy goth" can work... but i'd rather not get caught up in all that bullshit... I'm just Gwen. or Gui. or GuiLyn. or Gui-chan... depends on who you are. (although i really like Gui XDD) hehe... I wonder if anyone ever reads mah journal entries... they'd have to be a good reader and know how to read Gui language... :33 yosh! oh, i hear birds outside... and the sun ish shining... it is Spring, indeed... oh, i remember how badly my thirst was last night... water REALLY couldn't quench it THEN... neither could any other liquid... but i was too sleepy to go out and find some blood to drink... so i just took a little sip of water and went back to bad... i DID have a messed up dream last night... yeah, some kids in school were being shipped away for some kind of experimentation or something... ah, also into slavery... cept... slavery of teh sexual kind... but anyway... I was still in school and so were nila and devon and some other people ... who i only saw for a brief second... and for some reason... yeah, there were some wierd parts... O_O like, some people were playing some kind of ******** up version of tag in which you had to rip the front of the other person's shirt... it was messed up... ah, and then lotsa people went to teh locker rooms... cept teh locker rooms were freakin HUGE!! ... and the guys were in the girls locker room for some reason... (i always have those kind of dreams in which I'm in the men's bathroom or something or they're in teh locker room... but for some reason, i dont mind it in mah dreams... huh) well nayway... after some testing and stuff, everybody was seated in a really dark room... which kinda looked like an auditorium of sorts... and they were all watching a very scary movie... in the movie, a lady went inside a building and in there, she started getting sucked at by millions of some sort of alien worm babies... and she started getting wrapped in these thick sort of layers of skin... I remember I was closing my eyes in the dream and wishing I could block out the lady's screams... I really don't like scary movies... so i left the room and went to this fully lighted room in the back... Some other people were there, and so was Devon (and like always, his hair was looking wierder and wierder...) ... They were eating sweets and cakes of some sort... and Devon kept avoiding me... until this one part of my dream in which he hugged me from behind and put one of those wierd alien worm things on me, which then ate a whole through my stomach and wiggled its way up to my chest... i could feel it squirming there and eating my organs and stuff... but I was also watching this on a movie of sorts... or something... and so were the other people... it was odd. Well, a lot of my dreams are rather... strange... but sometimes i like strange dreams... well, i don't really like dreams in which I'm looking up porn... or FEMALE porn... or ones in which I'm having s** with someone... those usually aren't too pleasant... and they scare me when they involve chains and leather straps/buckles... *sighs* ahaha, i like mah gay dreams though... but i hate it when i drool uncontrollably during them... (i mean, dreams in which i'm watching other gay mens... hehe) Oh, life is so strange at times... I'm not strange though... hell no. x333 oh wow, i've had really bloody dreams before... Like ones with Envy... i like having Envy dreams XDDD ... I once had a dream that I was in a big silver cage... in a place where I could only see white light.... and from the chain going through the middle of the cage... (I was sitting in a silver chair near the chain)... Envy crept down and was talking to me about things... But i didn't understand... or I couldn't hear... I felt really dizzy though... I don't even remember much... cept Envy with his long black hair... And Then I was out of the cage... and in some other place... waiting for a train to come... but suddenly, millions of people were there... and they were killing each other... Edward and Alphonse Elric were there too, for some reason XDDD... and Envy suddenly appeared (yay)~!! But he was bleeding like hell... I remember seeing him cough up blood really badly... XDDD and then I pulled out a gun ... and I was blowing out people's brains with it... it was kind of scary though... seeing lots of people suddenly get parts of their body torn off by Envy or Ed or Al... and then seeing Envy soaked in blood and then regenerate and regenerate... surprised oo it was scary... but also pretty/erotic... oh dear me... here i am, rambling on about millions of things... hah! Devon still isn't on yet!! I'm getting rather impatient... perhaps i WILL get off right now... I think this journal entry ish getting too longs nayway... ok, so i'm off... ciao for now everyone... <333 I love Devon lots! heart Yeah... I'm bored... and this journal entry is OVER.
 ExplosiveFunGirl · Thu Mar 29, 2007 @ 10:08pm · 0 Comments |
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