Hmm, It is funny how sometimes I can be so happy but my heart is missing something. Awhile ago I killed it, and its memorial Shrine still haunts me as a reminder that it is gone.
I can be happy, sound happy, eyes twinkling, affection showing and everything that you can think of; but There is something missing. Everyone probably thinks "Oh it's the fact your boyfriend isn't around like other girlfriends have theirs" No, it's not. I'm not the kind of girl who is so deep in with her boyfriend that nothing on this plane exists. He is my boyfriend but he isn't the only thing that is there, I have other people and things that mean soemthing to me.
Something is missing from my heart, I killed it brutally, watched it die, and stayed with the corpse for a bit. I woke up after it and nothing was felt. I regained my whole emotions and whatnot shortly after but no matter who is with me and what Im doing, nomatter how happy I am, it's missing.
Nobody understands fully, I know some girls will be all "I know exactly how that is." But no they do not. Sorry Ladies but for you it is most likely the teenage angst that has clouded your vision.
stare Momo stare
 Momosai · Wed Mar 16, 2005 @ 01:50am · 0 Comments |
