What do I do??? My best friend is thinking about suicide! should i tell my councler! Mrs. Wigand is there for me. Holly dosent go to a councler and she wasnt ever picked last on choosing teams for P.E., she never had to go to many many annoying appointments, and atleastshe has some one. she needs to listen to good charlotte the song about holding on! ita goes HOOOOOOLD on if you feel like letting go hold on it gets better than you know! yada yada. i love that song!! of course she dosent probably relize i was thinking about commiting suicide MANY MANY MANY MANY times and at least I care about her. she changed my life she accepts me for who i am. i mean in her journal she didnt even say shed live for me! i mean i love her i wouldnt want her to go but of course if she commits suicide i will have to cause i cant go on. she helped me through the time i felt bad and she made me relize how great of a friend i am. i tryed chearing her up when her boy frined moved. i got her to laugh. i did alot for her. why would she commit suicide? she is like perfect. she hits guys and in there eyes she flirting with them. she can just go up to someone and say hi i cant do that! i am too shy! i am too stupid. she got the honor roll and what did i get? straight c's! its not like im important! i cant get in a good college. i probably will be waiting for the perfect man till im old and boney and 90 years old. she can get guys. she can do alot i cant. she can type. i cant. she can write good. i cant. she can read at a high level. i cant. she can talk. i cant. I FeEEL SO NOT IMPORTAnT!. HOllys important! i sit at lunch saying im gonna die. everyone around grunts and walks away. she says something like that and everyone is around her and hugs her. i am not important. two or three friends and my family would probably be at my funearal. THE WHOLE FRICKEN school would be at hollys. i need to just die and never be remembered. noo one would care. may be my family will cry on week while my "friends" shed one tear and run off. thats how i feel. my life is misserable cause of my friend who thinks her life is misserable! is she trying to be ME? i mean i say i see little dots floating around cause im a bout to faint and she says she sees the same thing! yeah right. i wish someone will kill me so HOLLY cant say what im feeling anymore. im the one who has to take pills! i have to go to daily appointments. i HAVE to eat with those pills and when i dont eat no one cares if i dont. i heard on the news that there was a teenage girl who kept not eatin and finally she just fainted and hit her head and died. nobody cares if i did that. well enough about me. now kill me. die me die me die me die me die me die me die me die me die me die me! this is my heart...<img src="http://mpg.cc/garfieldlover/heart_large.jpg">
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