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i dont care if the people im takling about are reading this:

~even though i dont realy like you guys im sorry T-T besides nobody reads my journal~

so i was fishing, and i was talking to this girl. she was nice, we talked about what kind of animes we liked and stuff. then she asked if i liked j-rock, i said i didnt really listen to it much, the few japanese bands i did know, and that i was listening to aif. she said that afi is what posers listened to. that didnt really bother me, then she left. some one eles came in. we started talking, she asked who started the room. i said i didnt know, there was a person here before me and they called me a poser. they said that was mean, what were they like? i said they seemed nice but had an issue with "poser-ish-ness" they were like are you 12 poser-ish-ness?
i know ill typ things weird,but thats just how i am, im soooo sorry i was born that way. she said that the person brom before and her were friends and they were sitting next to eachother. whats up with that? they had this whole scheem planed out! then there all making fun of me, so i asked why, iv alwaysed wondered what joy do people get from being mean to others. they said it was fun, but i still dont get why. then they thought i was blond and preppy becouse i was a "bloomin' idiot" bloomin'? like a flower? and at some point they wrote "f**ked" and im thinking if your going to swear, just swear. putting stars is like " i want to say something mean but i cant" any ways i was jopeing that people would just be nice. people who do mean things like that only do it becaus they feel bad about themselves, or they cut themselves, im not saying that you guys do. i dont want anyone getting mad at me, but i just wanted to say some stuff. sorry, for everything. i dont like being mean but i dint think i am , am i?
even though i know i shouldnt let things like that bother me, but it dose. and because you guys dont know what goes on in others people's life, you never know what kind of effect of what youre saying will have on people. i know this whole thing is super cheesey, but its true. i would like to meet people who are actually willing to be nice and be friends. the world needs to be nicer!