Love that film, Chris's mom brought it me. It's awwesomes. :]
I don't blog enough and am suffering the consequences. I need to write crap down to feel empty enough to keep a stable mood. I don't write my feelings/ideas down enough at the moment.
I'm confused at the moment. Friend-wise I just don't know what to do anymore. I wish life was a simple as 'dislike' and 'like' not all the in-betweens cos they confuse me too much. I don't know what anyone else feels about me, whether they want to be my friend or not and it makes me feel really insecure and alone. I'm finding it hard to talk to anyone at the moment. I don't want to cause in-convience or hurt other people. Even Chris, I can't tell him half of anything cos I don't want him to worry or get annoyed. I'm too conscious of others at the wrong times. :[
I want to tell people but I've dug myself a big hole as it is, if I wasn't so whiny then I guess it wouldn't be so bad for others.
Anyways, was ill early this week. Had Monday off school then tried to come in Tuesday cos I really needed the ethics guidance before Wednesday's exam. Mr Dent was off sick and I knew I was sturggling I felt dreadful so I went home again. Tried to revise on my own, failed so I just watched Alien.vs.Predator. Which is a rather good film but I prefer Alien all the way. :]
Philosophy exam was well shite. I just didn;t revise enough and I the questions weren't based upon my strengths. I was a bit annoyed but I'm gonna re-take in the summer. :]
Ugh, I just want to know what everyone really feels. I hate being confused. I hate it more than feeling down cos it's just horrible. :[
And I need Chris to hug me and tell me to stop listening to sad songs. To tell me I'm special and that to someone I mean something. But he doesn't compliment me alot. It's normal but this week.. I just want them. I'm so picky with my life. I wish I wasn't. I wish I was how I was when I had friends and I was able to smile without being confused and arragh. Damn being due on. Damn hormones. ><
 HoverCrab · Sat Jan 20, 2007 @ 05:31pm · 1 Comments |
