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It’s over. The math exam is finaly done. I don’t know if I should be happy or sad about it. It’s done, but on the other side, it won’t be over until I get my score, which risks to be miserably low, if I pass. If…

I don’t know why I care that much about it anyway. A score is just a number written on a sheet of paper, after all. But then, this number makes of you what you are, it tells you what you’re worth. Ain’t that sad?

On lunch time, I went out, even thought it was a cold day. I needed some air. The math exam was over, but I still took my revision sheets with me. I felt like I still needed to « study » the subject.

Reading the sheets, looking at all these tiny « x’s », made me realise how badly I had messed up with the exam’s easiest questions. (2xy / y) x (xy)2 … What was the answer again?…

I sighed and put the sheets back inside my agenda. It was worthless. I would need to do better in the next test.

I closed my eyes for a few seconds and inspired some cold air. The wind was messing my hair up and it felt great. I thought about Mystery and her other cat friends. They were as free as the wind. I envied them : they didn’t have to care about little « x’s ». Right now and there, I wished to be turned into a cat so I would not worry anymore.

I opened my eyes. I was still me. I still sucked at maths! But this time, I didn’t care. For real. I went back inside the school, back in this living and coloured Hell. I put my agenda back in my locker and closed the door behind it. I stayed there, in front of the closed door until the bell rang. And the third class of the day began…

When the bus dropped me at my usual arrest that night, my black cats were not there. I waited a few minuts, but they didn’t show up so I simply walked back home. Too bad, I still need to find a name to the fourth one by the way. The one with the striped white tail. Oh well, at least, I still have me Kitty. May be that, tonight, after I’m done with homework, we can watch a movie! What about « A nightmare before Christamas »?… sounds good to me. It’s gonna make me forget the « Nightmare before Math class »…

And here ends another chapter of my life. My not-always-so-usual-life. My strange life…

See you upside down!

-Emily-