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I wrote this to my parents today
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You guys don’t even know why I hate going to church every Sunday. Every time I ask dad he says because he wants me to change of what I believe in. He wants to try and force me to believe this religion that seems so stupid to me it hurts that you guys believe in it. I cant believe you guys. Your aposto be my parents. The ones who would accept me even if I had no legs, no arms, or had some sickness. Well you're treating me worse than a parent who hates their child because they were born wrong. You don’t accept me because of what I believe in. Ever sense I told you, you guys have treated me differently. You treat me as if I wasn’t part of the family. You see I have the worse part in the family already. I'm not the first girl, the oldest, the youngest, or even a guy. Guys get attention the most anyways; and then there daughters. Nope, im not the first or oldest daughter like Megan. I'm just the other daughter. Number two. But aside from that, you guys just treat me differently. Like im not good enough for you're family because I believe in something different than you. I can't believe you guys. This is why I hate going to church every Sunday. Because you guys are just always reminding me that if I don’t believe what this church tells me, your not goingto accept what I believe, your not going to accept me. And you guys just don’t understand why I think differently; and now you're blaming it on my friends. That’s not only wrong, it's worse. All my friends believe in god, sure there not catholic or Baptist, but they all believe in god and what not. There not pushing me to believe into that there's no god. I believe what I think is true. I haven’t been Christian sense 7th grade when I learned about other religious beliefs; they made more sense to me. Not some "God" where you go to some "heaven" after you die. No. I don’t believe if you made "sins" on earth you go to "hell". But you know what you guys. Sins are a opinion of a person. If "God" thinks its wrong then you go to "hell". It's just another opinion. If you do something "wrong" in his eyes, you go to hell. It's just another opinion; A belief. So how can you say it's wrong for me to believe in something different if "god" believes its wrong? There just beliefs. But of course you guys don’t think its wrong for him to believe in something different. I just don’t see why you can't accept me. What is so wrong with me that you remind me every Sunday that you don’t accept me?! Whats so wrong with me?! I want you guys to love me. Im a good person! I don’t do drugs, I do things you ask me to, I don’t smoke or do anything that will hurt me, I try my best for my grades, and yet you don’t accept me! Why? Because of my opinion. Its wrong for you to do something like this. What would "God" think of you?! Would he think it right for you to kill your child inside because you don’t accept their beliefs?! You guys are killing me! Why can't you just accept me for who I am?! Whats so wrong with me?! I don’t see why I can't be apart of your family. I don’t even see why I want to be in it. Why would I want to be in a family that dosent want me there…