And you know, that's probably because a lot of things I'd want to say...I don't want other people to read. Simple as that. I should be writing it down in my diary.
I'm still needy, in case anyone was wondering. I still wish things would just go MY way like a child.
I'm also in limbo, and I'm questioning EVERYTHING about who I am, what I am, how I am, where I am, and why I am. Hurray. *cue the sarcastic party flag*
Despite all that, I'm having a good time. Music keeps me going, even though I'm going insane from lack of music playing/lack of singing groups. Pout. Justin Timberlake keeps me grounded, somehow.
I wonder if I'll recognize when I'm "in love" or whatever that is. So far only one person has ever made me permagiddy for a full 5 hours, and so far only one person (a different one) has ever been the cause of my forgetting to breathe simply by sitting beside them. I wonder what I'm willing to settle for.
It's bloody tempting for me to simply fall in the arms of boytoy once May rolls around...if he still wants me by then. He changes his mind a lot, but it's certainly nice being in his arms.
RPing only goes so far! xd
I've joined the badminton and Japanese International Students clubs; they've been good to me so far, and I'll be karaoke-ing tomorrow with the latter group. Unless of course I suddenly change my mind and go see I am not a dinner mint. The play does look good, and I'd have pleasant company to go with. Technically karaoke would/is going to be bad for my voice/cold, but I don't know if I can get tickets for this play right then. The theater's website is crap and doesn't work for the most part, and their phones are always busy, and my e-mail hasn't been answered so...I think I'll just go to dinner and karaoke. Screw being sick; I don't have to listen to my body.
Actually, listening to my body is why I'm here on the computer instead of getting ready to go to a pub night. I'm just so tired, lol.
I did enough homework. Even if I don't think I did, I did. So there.
 Renee the Rabid Squirrel · Fri Oct 06, 2006 @ 02:02am · 0 Comments |
