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"People fall in love for the same reasons that they go to casinos...they hope to hit the jackpot. But if we know the house always wins the game...then why do we bother to gamble? Well, some things are worth gambling for. Like a chance to love."
Teh, so true yet so ******** false.
I'm pissed again. Pissed the ******** off and hating the ******** world for it. I can't type all down why I'm so ******** mad becayuse I have such a ******** bad memory
No body ******** listens to any god damn thing I ever ******** say. Its like the whole ******** world is full of block head a*****e who can't hear anything besuides what the hell they want to hear.
I want to crush and break things and exert all my ******** anger.
Just ******** people. Thagts all the ******** there is to say. ******** you all you selish ******** bastards who don't take the time to get outside your own ******** bubble and hear what the hell other people say or even ******** concider how they feel. scream
I don't have the patients now to switch and scream in my other account so if you don't like what I'm saying here then you can ******** off because I dont' give a s**t.
I have cut, again. Just a small cut on my upper arm...
I hurt, and I cry. I'm mad and no one wants to even speak to me. Everyone is in their own ******** world so its ******** off to ******** Courtney as long as they're gettin their ******** jollies. I am used by everyone. Just kept around as something to play with when their bored.
Its not ******** fair. Why the hell can't I meet the nice ******** right people?! scream The peopel that don't mind talking to me. I mean I'm not even ******** offensive and I'm ******** nice as hell and no ******** body ******** wants me.
Oh yea, there's Kevin. stare Kevin who I'm ******** insecure about because he seems to like everyone else more than me. He's with everyone else more than me and I'm ******** left in the hanger to dry all alone until he can find the time to talk to me. He's got such a ******** lack of intrest in me and that ******** kills me inside.
Slashers busy as ******** and got this game Suikoden he's been wanitng so he will me MIA a few days; but that doesnt' ******** matter becase he rarely ever ******** talks to me any ******** way.
Sephy. teh, Sephy's the best. Sephy always talks to me. Sephy always makes time for me and we talk every morning. Sephy makes me feel wanted and like I'm not just caring for people for no reason. He's fun to talk to and uber cute. I don't talk to him when I'm mad or sad though, I don't know why i don;t. Whenever we actually do talk he always makes me feel better about everything. He never seems to be there though.
Teh, the one person who did make me feel better is...is just ******** diffrent now. I don't know why the ******** I get mad at him, part of me know's he's trying but the other part is skeptical as ********.
I am so ******** inlove with Chris its pathetic. I care so much about Onii-san, I'd do anythign for him and I mean that so literally its pathetic. He doesn't like me back and its...I dunno, I was stupid for thinking anything more than I should have. I just wanted it so badly...I daydreamed abotu it all the time and...:;sigh:: I feel so crushed. Its nto his fault, I mean...I am angry towards him but not at him. I know that doesnj't make sense...I really wanted his love and stuff. That thought made me so happy...I just...care so much for him. I want so much to have him and to have him have me...it was...just a stupid dream. I feel like such a ******** a*****e now and I just...I hate me for liking him 'cause I shoulda just known better....I just wish a guy I wanted wanted me too...I'm such a ******** idiot cry
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