<center> Pessimistic </center>
I'm pessimistic right now, I'm either about to become seriously depressed or seriously POed if I don't say something here and now.
My feelings feel like they are being hurt now. This is teh result of many people I know.
I'm to sensative, though sensative makes me giddy it doesn't seem to do much else to help me. Everyone always gets mad at me because I take stuff to heart, I don't know when people are being serious or just playing with me (note that these people themselves only say their playing because I get upset). People talk like they can say whatever they want to say to you, and its not like that with me. Be truthful but be nice about it, people are so rude nowadays.
I'm very tiered right now....
No one is ever here for me when I need them. I just want to lay my head down and sleep forever...peopel toy with me like I'm a game or something. I suggest if they choose to remain 'safe' anylonger they better get their act together.
I have that feeling again, like I don't really matter to anyone. Not that I care or anything, it just sucks when I realize that. I don't want to matter to any of you jerks. You can keep to yourself, bond with your cliques and ya I mean this to the people I know online too. I hate online people, they're so fake. They can be anything they want to be, and here the hell I am showing the world my true self and for what? To just be lied to, tricked, and used. Its strange how you can 'use' someone you've never even met; yea, but thats why I am to sensative fr thinking such a thing.
I hate you online people.
:;sigh:: Yes, this is another edit to the orginal post.
Just saw Kevin's RO chracter in Payon and he walked right past me, following closely behind another girl. No, not jealous, hurt but thats all. Real hurt, thats all. Again you online people find another way to manuever around my feelings and hit me where it hurts.
I'd cuss so much right now and fill this entry with spam but I just don't care anymore...
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