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agh, i dont want to do this but im just so pissed right now.

today me and my dumbass dad had a frickin argument. idk he just said i was talking s**t when i just said that it was mom on the phone...wtf.
and then he started calling me a ******** lazy ********. what the freak! and hes the one that just that just frickin lay on the couch doing nothing when my mom isnt home!
im the one doing the dishes, feeding my sister, doing frickin everything! and when i hardly have time to myself and i go online, he tells me to get off and to take care of my sister one minute after..god.
sometimes i wish i hadnt made that mistake when my mom was asking a divrce form and i said no.
now we`re suffering because of that lazy unemployed druggie.
yes i said druggie.
what i cant do ever in my life is to stand up to myself in front of him.
i always tell myself in the middle of a pointless argument that ill stand up for myself...but i cant.
i dont know...but..
ive been having abusements from him before...
i think thats why..
but im not gonna go cut myself and all!
thats dumb.
im just so pissed i gotta do something about it..
well whatever.