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Well, it's been a few weeks since Sami moved and... *Pouting* I miss my baby!!! *kicks something*

*Deep, irritated sigh* Me and her had only been talking a little bit through texting after she left. And it wasn't unlimited so we talked very little. Well, both of us were/are extremely bothered at the situation. (obviously) Well, about 2 weeks ago me and her got into it really bad one night. Over something really dumb, too. We were pretty much yelling at each other "I miss you" angrily. Well, we ended up saying some extremely harsh things to one another... Now, the really messed up thing is the day we got into it that bad was the last time I talked to her. Ugh, I even threatened to leave her... *Smacks myself on the head* Why do people do such stupid things when they're in love? It seems the stronger we feel the more angry we get at each other. Now after these 2 weeks I feel terrible... I don't know if I f--ked up too much and ruined our relationship... I don't know if she feels like crap because of the way I talked to her like I do. I don't know if she feels EXACTLY as I do, meaning afraid I will leave her when we talk again. I just want her to be happy... I wish she knew I didn't mean anything I said and I love her so much and do not ever plan to leave her...

*Deeper sigh of regret* When did I become such a p***y?

Anyway, on a seperate but similar subject; It seems Sami moved at just the right time. Yes, I'm admitting an advantage to the situation.

I won't say why here but holy crap have things gotten crazy since the MOMENT she left. I mean, wow. Sheesh. And it doesn't help that Sami doesn't know, because she constantly questions my motives for coming to see her. (This is what we were arguing about) I understand she missed me and wanted me there, but she doesn't understand that it takes alot of work to just up and visit another state. Ugh...

Oh, and I'm going back to school. That story is a whole other set of bull. I won't explain in detail, but I've got one phrase to sum it up; Suspended after 1 day.

*Deep sigh of despair*