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Twitter's gone to s**t. The Musk made it musky. So, here I am.

Making this one short and sweet for the next decade to pass.

Right now, you're back in school and working towards a Bachelor's Degree in Applied Sciences in Information Systems. Things are going... alright. You're in your 3rd year in, but you're quickly losing steam and you're desperately trying to hold on to this tiny spark.

I think one of the things that hasn't changed after all this time is the feeling of inadequacy and the social ineptitude of sorts. I'm still saying that I don't mind being alone, but the difference is that I also wish I weren't. I'm at the point in my life where it's hard to maintain the few friendships I have left and hesitant to make new ones. Disappointment and betrayal still plagues my mind. COVID didn't help with it. The latter bit of my time in the Navy didn't help with it. People who I trusted with my life but betrayed me and my family didn't help with it. I'm to the point where if you're in, then you're in. If you want out, there's the door. Bye.

But anyway, it's 0314 and I accidentally took a nap earlier. I'm so dead. sweatdrop

Erm... JEP out?