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So I was told I'm in remission now. It's not quite what I thought it would be.

"Remission from Borderline Personality Disorder" is a dream come true. Something that is rarely accomplished. I understand why.

I thought that remission meant a stable job. Friends. Responsible spending.

Remission for me is staying home. Unemployed. Being monitored by my husband.

I'm safe. I don't hurt myself or others. I don't take that for granted in any way. It's just... not what I expected. I'm not what I expected. I'm okay though.

I've learned what remission does mean for me:
I treat people well.
I think before I act and speak.
I stay out of the drama.

I have peace for the first time in my life.

I thank God for the things I'm blessed with: the means to stay home and not have to work. People I can interact with online. A wonderful husband.

It's not what I expected, but I've reached a seemingly unobtainable goal, and I'm so grateful.