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I usually get between 0 - 7 hours of sleep on a work week night, if 0 I make it up the next night.

When / during time off sleep is usually between 7 - 15+ hours, I often way over sleep and I admit part of the reasoning of this is to eat up my empty day. I am either alone or see my parents but otherwise have no one and nowhere to go.

( My Real Life Friends have not contacted me, called me or had anything to do with me in a full 10 / 15 years. They moved on, had or have families and really have no real ties to me any more it feels like.

Granted a few say "Hi" at my work but thats all in 15+ years thats all. )

Town here has nothing for entertainment, restaurants, a Liberary and a ( YMCA knock-off ) Health Community Center you pay $ fees to become a member of.

Two Public Sports Areas in town with, Tennis/ Softball/ Baseball/ Football fields. One of the two is our on/ a part of our local High Schools properties.

I sleep, I work.

In my off time I get on The Internet, I play games and my few "Hobbies"

I think to much, I worry to much I let to much stay on my mind and in my thoughts....

I wake up thinking..Why? ...Why was I "Allowed" to wake up, Why was I born and not my sibling ( My sister ), Why did my Mother not divorce my s**t-head Father? Why am I NOT a monster like I should be from My Fathers inability to treat me like he should as a Son?