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I have a worthless Father, but Iam his son. I hate him so much, yet he is my Father so I cannot keep the love I have for him completely locked away within the tightest locked chained rusted rotten stell box.

If only he was a just man I could hate mysef only, but thats not the case for me is nothing nearly as deep as a puddle of scum on top of the waters surface. A man who can make the sweetest lies and look to be the most honest beggar but that is only the scum shinning a pretty distraction on the waters surface.

Beneath the scum the rancid water sits, the lies the stories to make more of himself and reputation than he deserves. The very falttering and teasing of women which is within me and I hate that I see part of his falseness in me.

I would remove it if I could as I have done when I removed an ingrown toenail years ago. It would only hurt for a second then bleed and be done, if only it was as easy as this.

I could walk away I could leave and he would likely as if Im ok then about MONEY..........I cannot take much more of this.