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C'est la vie eh old chap?

At least there is someone out there that can understand the hollow feeling.

So yes, one is indeed the lonliest number. My core group of friends have finally found boyfriends (spare Jenifer, but she enjoys her fanfiction more than anything else) and this leaves me in the solitary position of the friend that can't find a date.

I'd insert a whole rant about how much it sucks, but as you may all know it does, and it does with a veracity that cannot be matched. Andrea says she won't leave me, part of me wants to believe in her, while the other knows better. She even told me how wonderful it is to spend all her time with this person, so who am I to just sit there any take up that time?

Friends are only friends when they have no one they can get felt up by. I learned my lesson long ago not to leave those people behind, and it appears that I am being slowly abandoned due to the mistake I made a long time ago.

Let them make their own mistakes, let them leave me. I highly doubt I'll be around when they need me. They don't need me. In all honesty I don't know what I ever brought to the table in the first place, so I can understand why they're leaving. I'm not entirely crushed by this, knowing that it was going to happen for a long time now. It just sucks.

Thats all. It just sucks know that your friends have better things to do. Makes you want to get a boyfriend just to forget about it, but getting one for that reason is stupid.

I'll never find one, and if Renfaire reaps nothing, this proves that there is something inherently wrong with me, or that I am still under some sick punishment.

Neh, whats the use getting myself worked up?


It stings regardless.