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Well....I don't think I'm going to go into alot of detail here, but things have been hard lately. There is so much crap that I have to deal with in my life that at times I worry that I don't have the strength to go on. I know that everybody has had their share of turmoil and s**t. It just never seems to end in my life. It seems like I'm not supposed to be happy. If it's not one thing, it's another. But most of the time, it's everything! I don't ask much. Not from life...not from anyone. I guess that I'm just tired of being...well...unhappy....sad....stressed...afraid....depressed...tired...yiou name it. Sure there are times when I can smile. There are days when the sky is not in immediate danger of falling. But lately, those days are few and far between. All I really want in life at this point is to be able to have a day when I get along with my son without the attittude ( I know that teenagers are usually full of attitude, but it gets to me) and to know that my marriage is strong. We've been through alot as a family. We've been through more than most will ever know. I know that we love each other. I don't doubt that at all. I guess I just worry. Nobody really knows the extent of what we have done for each other. Nobody else ever will. That is a pact that we will keep no matter what. We will keep those confidences for always for each other. That means the world to me.
I guess I'm worrying too much. maybe tomorrow it will seem better....