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Ack too many things boiling up. Rejection on One End. Utterly no chance on the other. Jeesh how do I set myself Up for these things. Maybe I should just become a nun least everyone in my family gets an Autobuy into heaven if I do.
Sometimes I really do wish that if I talked to Tati about this it would be like just some normal thing. But it wouldn't it'd be way too weird. I mean I'm me, I'm her friend and in the whole Love triangle thing I wasn't even a corner or an angle. I can totally see that now. But you know still doesn't mean I don't ... oh feh what the fook.
Bear will never apologize to me cause I don't really fookin matter. Oh and I'm a turncoat of some kind. Man all I wanted I mean I ever wanted was to just have this kind of normal relationship with her. I mean she didn't have to like me back but I can't even get that. I was kind of like gall stone or something. I was just there I don't play a major part at all.
And I don't even want to start talking about the dead end road that is Becca. Jeesh I swear I just don't even get a fair chance. In the words of Lloyd, "the Flesh World sucks"